Run-in=Relapse

Hi PC Pals,

Well here I am again. Depressed and dependent on the wine again. I was feeling really positive about my workout today. Starting to feel like there is a point to life. Then...on my way home, minding my own business there he is; my ex. The one who knows my deepest secrets and tore my heart in pieces. So to forget the pain and shock of seeing him, I drank.a lot. I hid in a corner and I don't think he saw me. I was doing good off of the alcohol. And now I just don't know if I'll ever be happy again because I relapsed. He seemed so carefree. And I'm hurting. I don't want to think about him ever again. How can someone be so bad for you? Can you really be addicted to a person?

I think we can sort of say there can be an addiction to a person. Now, honestly, what did you accomplish by drinking again? Did it really solve your problems? But, that said, just start your drink-free days over again with a new day one. It's not the end of the world that you drank--but don't do it again.

Are you seeing anyone to deal with getting over this relationship? It sounds like you could benefit from counseling.

thanks payne..i just had my appt w the T today..first time in a couple months..i understand he was an addiction, my past is also whAT is haunting..i dont see drinking as an accomplishment but rather a fix or an emotional "pain reliever".

Yes, people do use drugs such as alcohol as a pain reliever. I guess I tend to overeat when I am in emotional pain. I hope you will feel better soon!