[allme]

Hi all. This is my first time posting here.

I am 32 and have been on various drugs since the age of around 16 or 17. I have been through many addictions and the most recent is with Subutex (herion substitute) and have taken it for the last 3 years (while on occasion dabbling in coke, and speed). I was clean for 2 months but the past 4 days have been difficult emotionally. Today was the worst and had a major argument with my husband...it was all too much and I gave into the urge. I don't really know what I am asking of you guys...I have never sought out help with drugs as deep down I have always believed I could stop doing them if I wanted to but it seems I can't

What kind of help is there for this? I mean, 'how' can someone help me? Is it a case of therapy and dealing with the underline issues or is there something I can do that doesn't require therapy? I am on a waiting list right for my BPD issues but wondering if it's worth seeing a separate drugs counsellor or organisation.

How do you cope when in crisis? My ways in the past of coping, when unable to obtain drugs, was to binge eat to the point of throwing up or hurting myself. I know there has to be a better way. I just don't know what.

Thanks

[allme]

I am astounded not one person could help I am having problems today and actually called someone to get some but they wasn't there. I want help/support getting over these cravings and urges. But I guess no one is able to help here

[gayleggg]

Have you tried NA? as a 12 step group they set you up with sponsor, someone to call when you need support. It's helped a lot of people. I don't have any problem with drug addiction but I been in a 12step program and works if work it. Hope this helps.

[splitimage]

I'm sorry you didn't get more responses more quickly - sometimes this forum doesn't move as fast as the other forums.

I second the suggestion of trying NA. I go to AA and find it really helpful. It's good to have IRL support and people you can call.

You might also want to talk to your Dr. about treatment options, to help you withdraw and get a base of sober time. I know I needed treatment to stop drinking. I did both a 28 week residential program, and a 10 week intensive outpatient program.

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[allme]

Ok thank you

[TigerTHC]

Originally Posted by allme

Hi all. This is my first time posting here.

I am 32 and have been on various drugs since the age of around 16 or 17. I have been through many addictions and the most recent is with Subutex (herion substitute) and have taken it for the last 3 years (while on occasion dabbling in coke, and speed). I was clean for 2 months but the past 4 days have been difficult emotionally. Today was the worst and had a major argument with my husband...it was all too much and I gave into the urge. I don't really know what I am asking of you guys...I have never sought out help with drugs as deep down I have always believed I could stop doing them if I wanted to but it seems I can't

What kind of help is there for this? I mean, 'how' can someone help me? Is it a case of therapy and dealing with the underline issues or is there something I can do that doesn't require therapy? I am on a waiting list right for my BPD issues but wondering if it's worth seeing a separate drugs counsellor or organisation.

How do you cope when in crisis? My ways in the past of coping, when unable to obtain drugs, was to binge eat to the point of throwing up or hurting myself. I know there has to be a better way. I just don't know what.

Thanks

Hi Allme, sorry for the late reply...also keep in mind we're not all in the same timezone..

I would definitely suggest that you get to a drug counsellor asap. There is a certain dynamic in addicts and they have the knowledge to deal with it head on. No you cannot do it without therapy, because you are correct, the underlying issues has to be treated. Even if you relapse, or are using now, dont delay, find a therapist.

I hope that you are feeling better.

one day at a time....

Let us know how it's going....maybe come to chat ??

[gma45]

I am sorry I wasn't here sooner. I know how it feels when you are finally reaching out for help and it seems no one is listening. You have taken the first big step in the right direction, realizing that you can't do it on your own. It is not a question of strength, you are not weak. I know I finally reached a point where I was just done. Everyone is different but I agree drug treatment and counseling is a good place to start also NA. Don't give up you are worth it and you can do it!

[allme]

Thanks again!

Today was another touch and go day...I know I can't do this alone, I have tried and failed countless times over the years.

I am on a waiting list for CBT and also psychotherapy (which by their predictions should start after my CBT roughly ends)....maybe they can help me? Or do I need separate treatment for drug use?

[gma45]

I think if it were me I would go try and find a drug program also. I hope things get better for you soon. I know how hard it is when you are finally ready but it is not an over night fix. Look how long you have been doing different things to cope, it will be a whole new learning process. Learning to think differently is not easy at least it wasn't and hasn't been for me. I wish you the best pm me anytime.

[allme]

Originally Posted by gma45

I think if it were me I would go try and find a drug program also. I hope things get better for you soon. I know how hard it is when you are finally ready but it is not an over night fix. Look how long you have been doing different things to cope, it will be a whole new learning process. Learning to think differently is not easy at least it wasn't and hasn't been for me. I wish you the best pm me anytime.

Ok, thanks a bunch