Dreams

One night I found myself with a milk jug full of Amber Bock while I was driving my car. I kept thinking about the fact that I'd have to change my sobriety date and I was mad because I liked my sobriety date. Then I began justifying it, saying to myself that it wasn't a relapse. Then I woke up. Then I woke up again. It's almost always a dream within a dream that I dreamt that I drank. But the feeling is always the same, the shame in changing my sobriety date, then the justification, then the panic upon awakening (in the dream and then actually waking up) then the flood of relief that it was just a dream. Wow.

Last night in my dream, I was playing pool and the server told me they had beer on special and would I like one. At first I said no, then I changed my mind and ordered one. The dream either ended before I drank it, or else I don't remember the rest of the dream. But the relief was the same.

These dreams hardly ever happen, but I've had 2 in the last week. Which makes me wonder, is there something I'm avoiding? An unrecognized resentment? I made an appointment with a family member to make an amends. Maybe that's it. Maybe it's my Higher Power's way of saying "Remember to be greatful that you're sober." Either way, the dreams are unsettling at best, but a great reminder of why I do what I do.

A good friend of mine, a woman I met when I first got sober is having a baby girl. She's due on the day before my sobriety date. I asked her if she can hold the baby in until my sobriety date. Selfish? Me? Nah...Haha. I'm so greatful that I haven't had to change that date. Just had to share that I'm having these dreams. Any thoughts?

((((((((( RayRay ))))))))))))))

I don't know about the dreams, but I do know you haven't a selfish bone in your body!

Hugs,

Jan

I don't know why we dream them other to remind us of our weaknesses. It hurts sometimes having those dreams, but you hang in there cause I know it matters.

Those dreams where you think you wake and you wake again,i have not had since childhood but i still remember every detail of them,but at the time i was going through some trauma with my mother being beaten nightly,so maybe,it is related to stress,maybe its just about this meeting your due to have in fact i think it surely is,just a thought.OH and by the way,thanks for your support i appreciate it i really do.

Ray, we all get them. Maybe it is God, and maybe it’s something we ate. I don’t know.

But for me, the relief of not actually gone back out is my favorite part. As crappy as the guilt is in the middle of the dream, the relief upon awaking sober is sweeter for me.

Just quit eating a dozen Jalapeno poppers just before bed, and tell God thanks.

Richard

Hmmm, no jalepeno poppers, maybe it's the Pringles? Guilt at fatty foods so late at night...haha. Actually, I made the arrangements to make the amends that needed to be done, and there was no dream last night. I like them every once and awhile, just not twice in one week. One every once and awhile is a nice reminder, many in a short period of time tells me there's something I'm not doing. Just another experience on this long strange trip. Love it!!

Sorry U are having these dreams. What this may be alcohol is your normal cinditioning the body .For me I had been using a long time, at first I was scared and dreaded going to sleep afraid i would have them. It is the body and mind trying to get the alco. After a while I came to know this is good and feeling the warning of the body and mind. I hope this helps.