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So yeh, i've been drinking again.
it's been several months. the last time properly was for one night in july (and i was hypomanic at the time and got picked up by the police at 2am). besides that it was just half a glass of wine and a pint at graduation in november - a social thing that i was actually able to control - and since i went back to university and actually got my degree i thought i'd deserved a mini celebratory drink. before july it was way over a year. - i used to get though over half a litre of neat vodka a day for many months about 4 years ago and ended up losing my job. i got a job after uni finished and i moved cities but my contract has now ended and i have nothing lined up and just panicking i guess. it's easier to deal with when everything is dulled down. i don't like drinking anymore. the disorientated feeling just makes me panic. but i like the numbness. i always seem to take it too far though and end up half hysterical. i'm sober tonight (for the first time in 2 weeks) and it's half 2 in the morning. i can't sleep at all and feel like i'm only just hanging in. i don't know how to do this again. i barely had the strength the first time.
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I'm bipolar as well & taking seroquel. I won't lecture, as I know you're aware of the potential dangers of mixing alcohol & meds, but that might be responsible for some of what you're feeling right now. Again...lecturing sucks, but I find attending AA helps me stay sober. Whatever you decide to do, I hope you can stay sober another day...& the day after...& after...etc. I hope you feel better soon.
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