[eggplantlife]

I started to drink because of teeth problems. Then I stopped. And then I picked it up again. I just got over depression. But I am bored. Drinking made me feel better. Actually makes me happier so that is why I drink . But I think it is wrong. I guess, it okay social, but I have been waking up and very bored and nothing to do. So I start drinking and I feel better. Feeling good is a new experience to me.
But again,I am writing about it's effects. I do tell myself to stop drinking for the day, but then I drink later. So I am gathering I might have a problem now.
I mean I quit smoking last year and I got over depression. I have things to be proud of.

I do have a sleeping problem. Drinking at those hours I am up does help pass the time and when I am enjoying myself.

I don't know what is happening because I didn't drink like this before. I really had no drinking problem before. I really don't understand.
Is there someone to help me out there without making me feel bad.
I wrote to my friend about it and she tore me apart. I don't think that it was a good friend thing to do. It really was not an understanding response. She tore my character apart. And I think she was completely wrong.

But I am gathering I have a problem though I have been enjoying myself. And like I wrote before, feeling good is new experience to me.

Please help me understand what is going on.

[Angelique67]

Hi, as you say it seems you're drinking to fill a void, since without it you don't have a good feeling?

Is it becoming a problem to drink? Are you doing things that cause you problems later when you're sober?

[gayleggg]

Sounds like you may be self-medicating which could lead to problems if it hasn't already. It would be better if you could find a better coping method for your boredom. I suffer from boredom too and understand how drinking could help you feel better. But if you think it is a problem then it probably is.

Are you seeing a doctor or a therapist? If so, you might want to discuss it with them. They may be able to suggest some better coping skills.

I hope you find a better way as drinking can cause many problems when it gets out of hand. But it sounds like you are a very self-aware person and that should help you through this though time.

[Moogieotter]

Hi,

Let's see. You are drinking alone. Looks like you drink before noon. Most importantly, you recognize that you might have a problem.

Thanks for sharing here I hope it helps.

moogs

[eggplantlife]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Hi, as you say it seems you're drinking to fill a void, since without it you don't have a good feeling?

Is it becoming a problem to drink? Are you doing things that cause you problems later when you're sober?

I actually feel better than I have in years. I have been going through depression where suicide was always there every second. Now, it isn't there that much. Only pops up once in a while and not same intensity.

I actually been feeling really good.

The only side thing now is that I realized that the thing I lived the most don't need me. Actually everyone who o love don't need me or even love me ir even want me in their lives. I'm okay with it now.

But overall I have been feeling good. Drinking actually have been a plus to the goid feeling. But I know waking up and heading towards it isn't good. I did that for cigs when I smoked and I did that for coffee. So instead of coffee I need girl the drink. It really haven't had bad effect yet.

I'm pretty sober. I feel drunk and then it seem to disappear quickly. This us all new to me.

I will look into different coping method. Right now, think it might be giving me a stomach pain.

Thank you for helping me.

[eggplantlife]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

Sounds like you may be self-medicating which could lead to problems if it hasn't already. It would be better if you could find a better coping method for your boredom. I suffer from boredom too and understand how drinking could help you feel better. But if you think it is a problem then it probably is.

Are you seeing a doctor or a therapist? If so, you might want to discuss it with them. They may be able to suggest some better coping skills.

I hope you find a better way as drinking can cause many problems when it gets out of hand. But it sounds like you are a very self-aware person and that should help you through this though time.

Thank you. I am starting to see other coping methods. This morning in my walk, I think that this might actually may be helpful. I took meds to stop me from crying. While people say to me that it is good to cry and keep crying until you are finally done crying, but I woke up every morning for over 3 years. So I realized it became a habit. Though I did wake up with nightmares of my ex with the girlfriend at the time. And seeing them together in my dreams or nightmares made me wake up crying. So people I think 3 years was enough. SO this morning I was thinking that the drinking is helping me to feel the good feeling. Happy feeling because it doesn't come naturally. Actually I am going to quit drinking that much and if I find that I have limits then I have to quit all together. Because I really don't want to live like that and also it cost money. I really don't have the money to spend on something like this. I have to build my life.

Anyway with boredom. Maybe there is somewhere that I can understand about that.? I think I am missing something.