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Old Jan 12, 2017, 04:26 PM
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I just celebrated 8 months clean this week. I would’ve had 2 years this month, but had a 5 day relapse back in May. At that point I put myself back into treatment and today feel stronger than ever in my recovery.

I stay a little bit scared though because I know that addict in me is strong and wants nothing more than to destroy me. I’ve been staying motivated and focused by going to 2-3 meetings a week. I go to the ones at my treatment center. They are a bit different than 12 step program, but they work great for me. I also go to counseling, exercise, hang out with positive people and have created a great routine in life.

So overall today I am doing really well. I’m happy to be back on the forum and hope to talk to you all.

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Old Jan 12, 2017, 04:29 PM
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Emgreen, I too, had major abdominal surgery at the end of November. A 10" long incision from my breast bone to the top of my pubis! I can't imagine going home without giant pain meds!! Yes, like you, I had to have the big guns as far as pain relievers for my 5 days in the hospital. Once I went home I took the oxycodone as directed but under the supervision of my spouse. I haven't had anything stronger than Advil for over a month now and I'm ok.

I'm well practiced at playing the tape through, I never want to go back to where I was! I will always fiercely protect my sobriety!! But since they went traipsing all through my guts removing various parts and lymph nodes I had to go home with adequate pain relief or that could have triggered drug seeking behavior for me.
For the record, I wrote notz a PM. Her surgery was far more serious than my own. Let's all wish her a speedy recovery.
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Old Jan 12, 2017, 04:35 PM
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Just quit my job, and feeling like an absolute failure. Want to just drown in alcohol and not think. Been 3 weeks since my last drink because things were going well.
You’re definitely not a failure. Quitting a job can bringing up many different emotions. Some emotions are not so fun to deal with. When I think of using and just wanting to not think I play things forward in my mind. How things would end up if I did use..etc. Typically the end result is worse than where I was at to begin with. I hope you hang in there. 3 weeks is awesome!!
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Old Jan 12, 2017, 04:52 PM
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Emgreen, it is I who owes an apology! I think you did the right thing for you just as I did the right thing for me. I should have been more clear. I was trying to point out that sometimes you have to take prescribed pain meds because not to could be dangerous, as in cause drug seeking behavior. I wasn't meaning to disparage you or your recovery, I'm sorry.
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Old Jan 13, 2017, 06:20 AM
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How are you holding up, LadyShadow?
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Old Jan 16, 2017, 04:29 PM
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I started aftercare at my rehab today. It was kind of nice to see a bunch of people I knew, who I'd been in IOP with who finished before me.

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Old Jan 16, 2017, 06:16 PM
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Old Jan 16, 2017, 09:41 PM
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30 days. Nearing the end of the day, but still, 30 days today!
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Old Jan 17, 2017, 03:25 AM
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30 days is a HUGE milestone! Once somebody has been sober for a few years, the compulsion to drink goes away one day at a time. I remember when I was new to sobriety, each day was plagued by passing thoughts about drinking. In my mind, the newly sober people display an amazing degree of self-control. It can be damned DIFFICULT at first, but keep hanging on. Believe me, you will see your life & moods get better. Way to go!
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Old Jan 17, 2017, 07:34 AM
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Way to go childofchaos. 30 days is huge. Keep up the good work, one day at a time. You can do this.

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Old Jan 17, 2017, 08:55 AM
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Old Jan 17, 2017, 09:12 AM
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This has been going on for quite some time, Misssy. Perhaps I should mind my own business, but maybe it's time you sought some help...be it AA/NA meetings, inpatient, or outpatient treatment, etc. My experience was that until I made a move to do something about it, my substance abuse kept beating my arse. Keeping good thoughts for you...
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Old Jan 17, 2017, 11:41 AM
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Hey everyone! Just wanted to check in this morning and say hello. Congrats everyone on there clean/sober time. I know some days are difficult, but just try to do your best. Your best may vary from day to day depending on how you feel etc.. but you can do it!
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I slipped today again taking a ring from Ardene, after a week of resisting it.
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Old Jan 17, 2017, 04:42 PM
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And today marks an entire month. I am planning on getting my chip tonight, at an 8pm meeting. It is nearing 4pm now. At the ENT for a follow up of a sinus infection (where I learned I am allergic to sulfa drugs). Still having issues, but apparently this year the allergen numbers are off the charts, and everybody is miserable...
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Old Jan 17, 2017, 04:56 PM
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Congratulations childofchaos831!

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Old Jan 17, 2017, 05:15 PM
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Old Jan 18, 2017, 08:25 PM
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Restart.... After 42 days... 😞 I learned I can't become complacent
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Old Jan 19, 2017, 08:44 AM
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Restart.... After 42 days... 😞 I learned I can't become complacent
It's just another day...I count my sobriety in 24 hour increments. Just focus on the day ahead...or just the moment, if that's what it takes. You can do this!
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Old Jan 19, 2017, 05:28 PM
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What emgreen said I'm happy to hear you restarted and you learned something. You got this!!
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Old Jan 19, 2017, 06:56 PM
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Proud I resisted my urge to shoplift today, lets just hope it keeps on going like that.
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Old Jan 20, 2017, 09:02 AM
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Old Jan 20, 2017, 04:54 PM
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My noon AA meeting was about half the size it generally is on Friday. I guess a lot of people stayed home to watch the inaguration...the thought of which is nearly enough to make me drink again (kidding!). Seriously, though, a woman who was days short of her six months went back out for a day. She was corageuous in admitting it at a meeting, & should feel proud that she only went out for a single day. I'm not sure I could do that...I'm afraid one drink could send me out on a LONG bender. Been there, done that.
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Old Jan 20, 2017, 05:43 PM
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I think it's been about a month since I drank. Last time I went down that path, I felt like utter crap for days after, so I have tried to abstain. I don't know how long it will last, but at least I am trying
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Old Jan 20, 2017, 09:38 PM
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I think it's been about a month since I drank. Last time I went down that path, I felt like utter crap for days after, so I have tried to abstain. I don't know how long it will last, but at least I am trying
You're doing more than "trying." You're succeeding! Keep up the good work; it gets better.
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