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#127
Nov 30, 2016, 02:03 PM
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Been rough lately. Still sober, but having some massive cravings, due to triggers... currently Sleep deprived, ptsd related, but can't stand the thought of going home, and can only think a couple shots will put me right to sleep. So on the bus down the the main library... maybe walk around downtown, find somewhere to eat, and then see how I feel...
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#128
Nov 30, 2016, 05:41 PM
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Hang in there chaos. You can do it. Sleep deprivation sucks, but alcohol isn't the answer.
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#129
Dec 01, 2016, 05:37 AM
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Had a really intense drinking dream last night, on how I was going to drink, and beat the urine screen at rehab. Very realistic. It took me a few minutes once I woke up to realize that it was only a dream.
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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#130
Dec 01, 2016, 03:11 PM
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Feeling really good. 500 days sober yesterday.
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Love and Light, CloserToTheMid Bipolar I - Lamictal, Geodon http://closertothemid.wordpress.com |
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#131
Dec 02, 2016, 06:54 AM
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Big congratulations on the 500 days. That's really awesome.
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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#133
Dec 03, 2016, 06:28 AM
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Day 4 off the devil. I can think better although not like I used to. This has been a secret of mine for a while. I always relapsed on day 2 or 3 due to severe insomnia and sadness so many times. No cravings no pain throughout my body. I'm not a prisoner to the devil anymore! I actually am enjoying TV music and talking to people.
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#135
Dec 05, 2016, 01:52 PM
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24 days!
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Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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#136
Dec 05, 2016, 02:55 PM
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That's huge, childofchaos! One day at a time
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#137
Dec 05, 2016, 03:50 PM
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Way to go childofchaos. Keep up the great work.
splitimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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#139
Dec 06, 2016, 03:03 AM
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Had to have major surgery. There are no substitute pain meds for this. I'm following doctor's orders and spouse supervises my pills. Just checking in because it's smart to tell on the disease before it talks to you.
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#140
Dec 06, 2016, 06:53 AM
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Notz, Sorry that you needed surgery and pain pills. Smart decision to give them to your spouse to handle. Hope you recover quickly.
spltimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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#141
Dec 06, 2016, 08:55 AM
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Daily check in..depression sucks.
I'm sick of being unable to move and smoking up a storm. My pdoc is new to me and I am not on any medication for this depression...I will have to SWITCH again and I don't even have the motiviation to do so. |
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#142
Dec 06, 2016, 09:58 AM
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Last night was a challenge. I was very wound up. I felt that a drink would help, but I chose a cigarette instead. I'm not a fan of this solution. I've been smoke free all year. But it's better than the alternative. I called my sponsor, too. Should have been my first action.
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#143
Dec 06, 2016, 10:22 AM
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#144
Dec 06, 2016, 12:29 PM
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How long have you not been drinking? I almost had 2 months but then drank a week and half ago...years ago..(3)..I had 8 years sober and stupidly got drunk. |
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#145
Dec 08, 2016, 08:07 PM
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Missy, I'm still a drunk and fully capable of getting stupidly drunk. I work the program pretty steadily. That's really my only hope. All that matters is being sober today. So you goofed. You'll learn something and pick a new date.
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#146
Dec 08, 2016, 10:43 PM
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so got my steroid shot(s) for my lower back today, and instead of all out anesthesia they gave me versed, and then also fentanyl, to help with the pain of the shots and to stay calm and still... so im feelin a little sketchy right now, been feeling kinda tired/drowsy most of the day... it is just weird feeling...
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Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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#147
Dec 09, 2016, 02:31 AM
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Dec 09, 2016, 02:33 AM
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Dec 09, 2016, 09:26 AM
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Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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#150
Dec 09, 2016, 11:19 AM
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