[Althuzia]

For the past 6 years I've been smoking weed on a daily basis, about 1-2 grams of high quality MJ a day. Last time I quit I was succesfull for 3 months only to fall back into old habits.

Anyways, a few days ago I decided to quit weed again for health/money reasons. I tried to do cold turkey but the first 2 days I smoked two joints. Today is day 4, day 2 without any weed at all, I feel quite fine. I've got some falling asleep and the cravings are there.

I decided to stop again, because for the past months i've been feeling quite good. I've also entered a group therapy for my SPD/AVPD. so thought that it might be the best time to kick this habit. Used to be emotional unstable for 3 days after I tried to quit, not feeling that at all right now. probably because i'm feeling quite alright. But this leads me to doubts as to why i want to quit "it's going well, you're feeeling alright. you like toking so why not just do it?" is the thought that comes into my mind these past 2 days.

( can't wait for my vivid dreams to come back)

Any advice or general kind words will be welcome and i'll keep this post up-to-date till I feel like I've kicked the habit.

[Althuzia]

apparently this thread isn't so interesting, but whatever i'm mostly doing it for myself.

Today is day 8, I bought a joint and smoked it yesterday. smoked about half of it and then threw it away. Thought by myself " what am I doing, I'm honestly not even liking this over the clear head i've had the past few days.". day 8 is going REALLY well not even one thought of smoking either weed or a cigarette has come to mind.

I've had some stomach aches, but they're gone now aswell, I drank alot of water last few days to cleanse my body and soothe my stomach. Last night I've also gotten my first vivid dream again, too bad I couldn't remember it after I've gotten out of bed.

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Well done on 8 days. I've met people in rehab who are trying to quit weed, and seeing them struggle, I know it's not an easy addiction to kick. Keep on holding on to how you like your head being clear, that's a major plus.

Good luck and keep up updated.

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[Althuzia]

Thanks for the kind replies

Today is day 14, 2 full weeks. yay, I guess.

The only cravings I still have is when I am done with my job. I used to go by the local coffeeshop and buy a bag of weed. I know i've not kicked the habit yet. Last time I quit for 3 months only to relapse into smoking daily.

What made me relapse is that i was at a party at my sister's. Most people there were usuing drugs besides the alcohol. And I wasn't quite feeling comfortable, also due to the personality disorder I have, I ended up using weed to atleast feel something and not just "i wanna go home, it's boring here"

Also what's hard is that I don't really feel happy or proud that I quit, also has to do with my personality disorder. The only thing that keeps me from smoking is that the cravings are mostly gone and that i remember the joint i smoked on day 6 or 7, that I didn't enjoy at all. Next to that I'm picking up studies again and with my last studies I dropped it because my motivation was gone and I'd rather sat at home just abusing weed.

[Althuzia]

Almost 3 weeks. it's going well, got vivid dreams everynight.
Dreamt of using two times this week and got the cravings in my dream, but as soon as I've gotten out of bed the cravings were gone.

i've gotten slightly more interest in doing things,or better, my attention span has gotten larger. I can be content playing a video game or drawing. yesterday I also went to the movietheater by myself and watched suicide squad, i don't get the hate it gets from the critics I enjoyed it.

[CognitoSchiz1989]

I too have thoughts about me being better on drugs. I was more sociable, I had more friends, my mental illness was completely covered by my drug use so I felt fine. Honestly, it will take me a lot of therapy for that. I am 5+ years sober and I still feel this way on occasion. So I don't really have words of advice except that I know what you are going through.

[GennyM]

Good luck! I'm a pothead but have only thought about quitting!

Hey congrats and good luck

The hardest part of quitting smoking 20 years ago for me was changing my life style. Everything I did was built around using. The brain cravings should soon go away, just need to eliminate triggers that kick off the cravings.

[ablankscript]

I just quit myself. For me it was just a habit to do, I guess it was an addiction that I had wantedto quit for a long time. It was making my symptoms far worse, feelings of panic and thoughts of self harm. It used to be a way for me to relax and unwind, but it is hard to relax when you are freaking out in your head. Everytime I had weed I would say this is it, but break down and get more thus a cycle of helplessness ensued. It seems to me that either the weed I was getting was of poor quality or I over did it thus burning out the receptors or maybe it's the medications. I don't know? The last straw was an article on the positive and negatives of pot. I don't know if I believe what I read but it was enough to make me wonder if I need to be smoking something when I could be doing something more health promoting with my time. So I got rid of my stuff and my bowl, it hasn't been a week yet but I haven't had any cravings so far.

[Althuzia]

Close to a month now. my dreams have calmed down a bit, not as vivd anymore. but they're still there.

Originally Posted by CognitoSchiz1989

I too have thoughts about me being better on drugs. I was more sociable, I had more friends, my mental illness was completely covered by my drug use so I felt fine. Honestly, it will take me a lot of therapy for that. I am 5+ years sober and I still feel this way on occasion. So I don't really have words of advice except that I know what you are going through.

I only had friends who I used drugs with but I dumped them about 2 years ago. Was feeling way better after a while, even though I had ( still have) 0 friends. I wouldn't say my drug use covered my personality disorder, It amplified it. I can get a bit more joy from doing things besides smoking pot. But it's still things i do alone and there's not much motivation.

Originally Posted by GennyM

Good luck! I'm a pothead but have only thought about quitting!

If you ever want to quit and have some questions, want advice or need someone to talk to just pm me. Just don't be upset when I only reply after a few days.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Hey congrats and good luck

The hardest part of quitting smoking 20 years ago for me was changing my life style. Everything I did was built around using. The brain cravings should soon go away, just need to eliminate triggers that kick off the cravings.

Hhm wouldn't say my life was structured around using, It's legal here so I don't really have to go out of my way to buy/use. Also I was pretty good at hiding it, but that could also be the high tolerance i've built up for so long. when i get a craving now it's not like "I WANT it really bad now" but more like "it might be nice" and only lasts for about 5 secs.

Originally Posted by ablankscript

I just quit myself. For me it was just a habit to do, I guess it was an addiction that I had wantedto quit for a long time. It was making my symptoms far worse, feelings of panic and thoughts of self harm. It used to be a way for me to relax and unwind, but it is hard to relax when you are freaking out in your head. Everytime I had weed I would say this is it, but break down and get more thus a cycle of helplessness ensued. It seems to me that either the weed I was getting was of poor quality or I over did it thus burning out the receptors or maybe it's the medications. I don't know? The last straw was an article on the positive and negatives of pot. I don't know if I believe what I read but it was enough to make me wonder if I need to be smoking something when I could be doing something more health promoting with my time. So I got rid of my stuff and my bowl, it hasn't been a week yet but I haven't had any cravings so far.

for me it was never to suppress feelings, more to actually feel something. About you thinking you have been giving low quality, that could be. might aswel be that you just smoked too much and your tolerance went way up. that's why I did an occasional "T-break" for a week to get really stoned again for about 2 days and then only get stoned for a bit.