[damajdancer]

i went to a friends house the other night. first i took 3 adderall and 7 200mg caffine pills, i was tripping and everything then my chest started getting really tight, and it was hard for me to breath, i have over dosed at this persons house before, so i didnt really say anything. then we got about 3 grams of weed and we smoked 2 joints, then packed a bong which is like 3 feet tall. after we smoked the pot, i couldnt move at all, and my vision kept getting fuzzy...i thought i was dieing. i told my friend to tell my parents that i love them and im so sorry and all that junk because i was so sure i was going to die. i puked in a garbage bag, and i was so tired but i know that when you od you're not supposed to sleep, my friends knew that too, so i was scared to sleep plus they wouldnt let me. finally it all started to pass, not in the amount i wanted it to, but eventually i feel asleep and woke up the next morning. it was the scariest thing i have ever gone through. i want to quit but i am so addictted. not really to a specific drug, but mostly any pill i can find i will take way more than i should. and i know im addicted to pot. but i was just looking for some more support because i am extremely scared. i had told myself, the first time i over dosed, that i will never let myself get that bad again...but here i am almost dieing in my friends basement. im very shook up and scared right now...i need to get help, but i just dont 'want' to and i kind of dont know how. i feel very stupid because i keep messing myself up more and more.

[Raynaadi]

What more of a bottom will you need before you get help? Reaching out here is great, but we can't stop you from picking up. You said it yourself, you almost died. What more is it going to take to make you want help?