Please Help!

Most of you here know i dealt with a stalker the last year. Prior to which i lost my husband and kids.

Though the stalker problem appears to have finally been resolved in the courts....restraining order etc...and I had not had a drink in 10 years which i was proud of...I found myself feeling helpless thru it all... which trigged me many time.

Now ATM WMD is hiding my jack. He said he only moved it a bit.
But I glad he understands what a hard drinkers needs ...a few Strong beers LOL

Feeling powerless can be a trigger for me too, big time.

Sometimes I can get round it by doing something, and sometimes its really not my fault and nothing I can do... which is the case with other peoples behaviour, but finding the best response, thats the tricky one .. huh!

river

Roz, when did you give up your commitment to be in control and sobor? You *feel* like drinking, powerless etc. Are you interested in your health and well being? You are you, your power is you. Not your feelings. Your sobriety is you. You are not your feelings, you have feelings, real or imagined but you are not them.

((River))

Thanx for understanding.

Hope you're ok?

mellors?

It's hard staying off the drink when you think you're a piece of crap not worth caring about...

esp when that is re-inforced by others.

Esp when you grew up a street brat and nothing has ever changed, you still feel worthless.

Sorry folks but guess i feel that way atm.

Hi Mr Jack Daniels, my only true friend besides corky here it feels like....nvm.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Roz )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I can really relate to how you are feeling.

BUT!!! I try to remind myself that if I don't stay away from drinking, pills, etc. (I have a whole "menu" of crappy coping mechanisms!), I will never give myself the chance to really heal, to really find out what life COULD be like. I'll just be keeping myself stuck in a painful place.

It's hard to resist the urge, especially when I'm in a bad place - but I guess it's a leap of faith - that maybe things CAN get better, if I give myself a fighting chance.

Whatever happens, I'm rooting for you.

((((((((earthmama))))))))

i'm trying real hard today to not go there so thanx for your support.

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mellors?

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I care Roz ........ I missed you ... and WM ....... sending you big hugs love you Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I AM YOUR FRIEND and whoever is trying to make you feel like trash is obviously a bully and just ignore them ....

send em to me I'll sort em out ...... kez xoxoxoxoxo

((((((Kerry)))))))

I didn't mean you.....and yes I have missed you too.

We have to finally get round to this fone call one day soon eh?

Love and hugs to you ((((((Kerry))))))

bmoz...i just didn't understand your reply, it made no sense to me and a former member also used to talk that way too....i just thought you were that member...sorry.

(((Roz))))

You are not trash. You have shown here that you are a kind and caring person. And giving up your kids was an act of love courage and strength.. I know it's hard sometimes to feel good about ourselves, but remember drinking will make any problem worse.

I'm struggling a lot at the moment with wanting to drink, on an upcoming vacation, but I keep reminding myself how much better my life is now that I''m sober and how I don't want to go back to that miserable broken person I was when I was drunk all the time.

Believe in yourself. You're stronger than you think. You can pull through this.

--splitimage

((((splitimage))))


i'm sorry you're struggling but i admire that you can still help and advise others like me thru it.

you're right...i have to believe in myself and be strong....believe that i'm worth it....you too!

peace and love to you,
roz
xx