[Moose72]

Sorry- but I have to get this off my chest. WARNING: May Trigger

I usually post in bipolar and am on various meds for it.

I used to get these horrible bouts of illeitis- infection of the last bit of my small intestine. So bad, that I rated the pain worse than any of my 3 labors- even at a 10 last time. I'll spare the details, but needless to say they would give me anti-nausea stuff and morphine. This went on several times a year for a couple years- even once a week for a bit.

The last time was Dec. 2007 and for pain after I was at home, they gave me 5 oxycontins. I took one a day, but even after one day, I held on to them like food in the wilderness. I'd think "What's so bad about this?" but then it would wear off and I'd itch like crazy.

Now that I'm having more issues with my bipolar, I'd love to have those 5 pills back- minus the itching. Nevermind that my social worker asked today if was taking any "drugs" because I can't stop itching! This itching is different, though. And no, I've only been taking my scripts.

oxycodone and oxycontin are SO addictive. Beleive me i know, I am very very very very very careful with them as I have to use them sometimes for chronic pain. The feeling one gets from them really makes you feel warm, fuzzy and perfect.... while your on them..

I had to take them for a week and a half once for a severe Fibromyalgia flare and let me tell you I experienced everything an addict would coming off of them and it was NASTY. Horrible. Worst feeling EVER. Maybe if i tell you it will help you to not think about them in that way, because I sure know how you feel.

Baiscally coming off them leaves you with headaches, severe stomach pains from.. lets just say intestinal "upset", thats the nicest way I can put it.. dizziness, vomiting, rebound pain and a general feeling of having the worst flu ever.

And the thing is with these pills one begins to develop a tolerance right from the first pill. So its VERY easy to get yourself to dangerous levels with these pills.

I'm sorry your experiencing the cravings for them. As a recovering addict from hard drugs, I know what cravings are like and they STINK. But you can ride them out, distract yourself until it passes. And it helps if you make sure you have no access to anything like that.

Many hugs and love if safe.

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(((((((moose72))))))) how are you doing?

[Greg77733]

I have several bad disks in my back and it hurts to. Try to stay away from Oxy, the addiction is worse than the pain. Stay strong