[youOme]

Note: If you have a eating disorder this could be influencial or triggery, just avoid if you want.

My legal drug of choice is over the counter diet pills. I have been taking diet pills since I was 14 years old and I know my health is being affected. Today I have four bottles of diet pills in my medicine cabinet and two empty bottles in the console of my car. I also abuse diuretics. I've always felt this immense pressure to be thin, but the funny thing is I have never truly been thin. I have always been a shapely girl, accept when I was abusing illegal substances years ago. I feel completely drained of energy and massively filled over if I do not take my pills. The diet pills keep me energized and the diuretics drain me so I do not feel so full all the time. They used to supress my hunger, but I have built a tolerance to all diet pills, they no longer suppress my hunger, but they do make smaller meals more filling.

My largest fear is if I do get myself off the diet pills, I will balloon up and never beable to shed it the healthier route. I've probably tore up my thyroid. I imagine I have a future of corrupted health issues and plus size pants. My outlook is scary here.....what could I do?

Posting Confusion, btw....could have been considered "eating disorder."

Addiction seemed more apropriate since it's habit I can't break and it's negatively affecting my life.

[madisgram]

if you are concerned that the diet pills and diuretics are a problem,(and it does sound that way, imho) why not discuss this with your gp? or pdoc?
let us know what u think about that, will u? i'm concerned for your health.

[notz]

Wow, it takes a lot of outside stuff to keep you right. Sounds like you're forever tinkering and reacting to how you think you should look or be. Makes me tired just thinking about it!

You're right about blowing out internal organs...thyroid and the rest can't tolerate this forever. What are you going to do?

notz

[youOme]

I'm not sure, I've been doing this on and off for 9 years now.... My body is fine now that I know of, but later is what I worry about the most.

[Lenny]

Originally Posted by youOme

but later is what I worry about the most.

Absolutely nothing is free...and I worry for you too...

Anything done compulsively is deserving of attention...

I agree with madisgram...please seek the counsel of your professsional...Tomorrows bed is made today...

Lenny

[youOme]

Originally Posted by Lenny

...Tomorrows bed is made today...

Very true...I agree, I plan to make important phone calls Monday. I didn't take anything today, but I literally felt I haven't slept in a few days and the pot and half of coffee I've consumed seems to have an opposite affect today. I plan to make this better.... hopefully...

[Sled Chick]

OK...Along with my coke habit, i too have the exact same problenm as you except i just tapered down to over the counter diet pills. Was using street stuff for 15 years. The reason Im telling you this? I am 49 years old. I am just now getting around to doing what i should have done years ago. I am disabled now. Fybromyalgia and arthritus. I blame the severity of my dissability directly to the drugs.Please do something about this before it is too late.

[youOme]

seld chick, I symapthise for your situation and is kinda scary. i know if i don't act soon my health will do nothing but spiral downward, especially as i age. thanks for sharing your personal situation with me.

[notz]

I plan to make important phone calls Monday.

It's 11 PM on Wednesday, did you make those phone calls?

[justaguy]

Originally Posted by youOme

Note: If you have a eating disorder this could be influencial or triggery, just avoid if you want.

My legal drug of choice is over the counter diet pills. I have been taking diet pills since I was 14 years old and I know my health is being affected. Today I have four bottles of diet pills in my medicine cabinet and two empty bottles in the console of my car. I also abuse diuretics. I've always felt this immense pressure to be thin, but the funny thing is I have never truly been thin. I have always been a shapely girl, accept when I was abusing illegal substances years ago. I feel completely drained of energy and massively filled over if I do not take my pills. The diet pills keep me energized and the diuretics drain me so I do not feel so full all the time. They used to supress my hunger, but I have built a tolerance to all diet pills, they no longer suppress my hunger, but they do make smaller meals more filling.

My largest fear is if I do get myself off the diet pills, I will balloon up and never beable to shed it the healthier route. I've probably tore up my thyroid. I imagine I have a future of corrupted health issues and plus size pants. My outlook is scary here.....what could I do?

Posting Confusion, btw....could have been considered "eating disorder."

Addiction seemed more apropriate since it's habit I can't break and it's negatively affecting my life.

hi as far as the eating goes try grapefruit pills they are made by compressing the husk of the fruit and they expand in your stomach,
also drying you up. and a good fiber pill sure wouldnt hurt. as far as that speed buzz goes thats a problem and your right this not an eating disorder. your going to be tired and lazy for a long time, but time is the answer. you will get over the urge. good luck and dont give up. remember they make that crap into meth. take good look at a meth-head that will be your tomorrow your just on a slow boat. hey so whats so wrong with some curves anyway

[nowheretorun]

Originally Posted by youOme

seld chick, I symapthise for your situation and is kinda scary. i know if i don't act soon my health will do nothing but spiral downward, especially as i age. thanks for sharing your personal situation with me.

((You))) we are all pulling for you to make it through this, the steps you are taking now determine the future of so much , ty for caring for the kids and thier future too... that is why i see an angel in you hon

Originally Posted by youOme

Note: If you have a eating disorder this could be influencial or triggery, just avoid if you want.

My legal drug of choice is over the counter diet pills. I have been taking diet pills since I was 14 years old and I know my health is being affected. Today I have four bottles of diet pills in my medicine cabinet and two empty bottles in the console of my car. I also abuse diuretics. I've always felt this immense pressure to be thin, but the funny thing is I have never truly been thin. I have always been a shapely girl, accept when I was abusing illegal substances years ago. I feel completely drained of energy and massively filled over if I do not take my pills. The diet pills keep me energized and the diuretics drain me so I do not feel so full all the time. They used to supress my hunger, but I have built a tolerance to all diet pills, they no longer suppress my hunger, but they do make smaller meals more filling.

My largest fear is if I do get myself off the diet pills, I will balloon up and never beable to shed it the healthier route. I've probably tore up my thyroid. I imagine I have a future of corrupted health issues and plus size pants. My outlook is scary here.....what could I do?

Posting Confusion, btw....could have been considered "eating disorder."

Addiction seemed more apropriate since it's habit I can't break and it's negatively affecting my life.

((youOme ))))))))))))) you were and are very brave to write this out
As the others said seek your Drs help. They are very addicting imo.
they can harm your stomach plus other things .
The diuretics are nothing to mess with either. imo
I know you can kick this.
The last pill the diuretic you do not want to over use you may need it someday in your life.
My best wishes to you...(((you matter))))))))))))
muffy