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Last week, I found my Vicodin my husband hid from me. so i took 3 of them. I swore off of them but i gave in. i have 9 months of clean time with alcohol why can't have clean time with pain pills? It's like when I know I have them i get all paniky and anxious. Ugh. I even went without taking any xanxs for my panic disorder just to take that damn stupid vicodin. Now I am ashamed. I have overcome meth, coke, alcohol, and acid. Why not pain pills? I mean if i can get addicted on pain meds then why not xanax? I don't even like to take them.Sometimes a month script of xanax willo last me longer than a month. But if I was getting 60 vicodon a month they would be gone in less than a week. WHY?
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![]() ![]() You slipped up -- that's not so bad. You just have to start over again. Pain pills are so freaking evil. I bet if you hadn't found where your husband had hid them you never would have even thought about them. Coming across them the way you did almost made it a delightful little gift, of course you slipped. I hope you managed to toss or flush the others... you did, right? You're gonna be just fine because you're a strong woman. Please don't be too hard on yourself! ![]() ![]()
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![]() " I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence. The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth. Please don't tell me that we had that conversation, 'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use? Aahh, the night is calling, and it whispers to me softly, "Come and play". Aahh, I am falling, and if I let myself go I'm the only one to blame. I'm safe, up high, nothing can touch me, but why do I feel this party's over? No pain, inside, you're like perfection, but how do I feel this good sober?" (From the song "Sober", by Pink)
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Thunderbear,
It took courage for you to admit this, and I admire you for doing it. Please don't beat yourself up. You had a slip, you've posted openly about it, and now you can get back on track.
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hi knothead. I did'nt flush them there was only one left and i dont bother withone. But damn do i feel awful. I tell myself allthe time i am not gonna do it again but then i do.
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Thunderbear, I think your confession in your post shows that you're taking responsibility for your actions and you should be applauded. The fact that you slipped a little and now feel bad about it shows how much you've grown. Please, don't beat yourself up about it, you're only human. And seriously, pain pills are so hard to resist!! ![]()
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![]() " I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence. The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth. Please don't tell me that we had that conversation, 'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use? Aahh, the night is calling, and it whispers to me softly, "Come and play". Aahh, I am falling, and if I let myself go I'm the only one to blame. I'm safe, up high, nothing can touch me, but why do I feel this party's over? No pain, inside, you're like perfection, but how do I feel this good sober?" (From the song "Sober", by Pink)
Last edited by knothead; May 01, 2009 at 04:01 PM. |
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Hey, I'm not one to know much about addiction, but I slip up with other things...and when I'm feeling "healthy", I use my anger, my "I'm really pissed at myself" to motivate me into doing the responsibile thing.
Start over again that's the great part. If one pill isn't enough to bother with, then get really mad at 2 pills or 3 pills for coming into your life, because they aren't worth bothering about either. You deserve to be free of them! You know what you need to do when temtation hits, you've done it before. I believe you will do it again. ![]() |
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