[steve j]

ok so i was drug fee for 2 years and booze free for 19 months well im bang on it again

i dunno if i have another recovery in me

steve

[SeptemberMorn]

Steve, of course you do! The alternative is a lot worse.

Pulling for you!

[Junerain]

What kinds of consequences did your first 'using' period, what toll, on your personal life? Did it hurt enough to want a change?

[madisgram]

welcome to pc, steve!! i believe you will find a lot of support here.
i've been sober "for a few 24 hours" as we say. what do you think was the cause of the relapse? i know for me when i was initially struggling with the disease of addiction i would go back and drink again expecting different results and the results were always the same..i didn't dictate what alcohol was going to do for me, alcohol dictated what my life was going to be or for the most part not what my life would be. for me it was loneliness beyond description, a loss of hope, doom and gloom, depression, ad nauseum. "jails, institutions and death." no wonder i saw it as a bleak prediction.
now this is just my experience, not yours, but i'm glad you found us. you do have choices and if you decide you want sobriety you can find it. recovery is at your fingertips. but only you can decide if that's what you want. i believe you do or u wouldn't have posted, imho. we can support you and help you find the light of hope. it's a "we" program. it's all just "one day at a time" for us. keep us posted on how u are doing?

[Pheonix28]

Let me start out by saying welcome.I have have 15 months sober and clean this time around. I know you can do it (stay clean and sober).
Wishing you well and lots of hugs.

[Capp]

Originally Posted by steve j

ok so i was drug fee for 2 years and booze free for 19 months well im bang on it again

i dunno if i have another recovery in me

steve

Steve,
It took a lot of courage to post about your relapse. I applaud your honesty.

None of us know if we have another recovery in us...we do know that we have another drink/drug in us.
Wondering if I have another recovery has kept me clean and sober for this day and a few others.

If you are part of a 12th step program, consider doubling your meetings and keeping in close contact with your sponsor.

Don't beat yourself up. It's wasted energy...energy that you can use to remain clean and sober.
Take it a day at a time; if a day is too long then take it an hour at a time.

Please continue posting and let us know how you are...
We Care

Cap

[youOme]

If you did it the first time, you can do it again. Everyone makes mistakes, but it doesn't justify not trying again..... dust yourself off and get back on, it's always a hellish ride.

[trixielou]

Originally Posted by steve j

ok so i was drug fee for 2 years and booze free for 19 months well im bang on it again

i dunno if i have another recovery in me

steve

yes you can be free of this prison again. i relapsed after 5 years of no alcohol or crack. i was the type of alcoholic where i would sleep with a beer on my nightstand to drink if i woke up. if the morning i would have shakes & dry heaves til i got enough beer back in me. i drank liquor & malt liquor also but at the end just regular beer cuz i could atleast not be a complete drunken mess on regular beer although i still was. well u know what i mean. after 5 years i started taking a xanax here & there to help me sleep & i got into problems with those. i eventually started smoking crack again & eventually had 2 or 3 drinking relapses. this time with some really crazy behavior. back when i was 25 i spent the whole year of 1999 trying to get sober & i stayed sober & happy for awhile cuz i went to church & had the happiness of Gods Holy Spirit in my heart but then i quit going & slowly stuff crept back in. after 5 years when i was 30 i drank again but knowing it makes me insane i thought i can get away with just smoking crack. that became a nightmare also. God was faithful to bring me out & im out of that Hell for good now!!! you can do it!!! Hugs & Prayers for you