how can i stop!?!

I'm 18 years old and addicted to alcohol and fags. The smoking doesn't bother me so much although i would like to stop. But it's the alcohol, it's ruining my life! I'm becoming something i hate. I'm losing friends and nobody seems to even realise what my problem is. But i wont tell anyone because it's too embarising. I need drink when i wake up. At lunch and in the evening when i usually get drunk. It's affecting my sleep, i can't even get 2 hours a night anymore. I never have any money because it all goes on drink and fags.
i can't stop on my own, ive tried and it actually made me feel really ill and at one point it felt like i was going to die and i couldn't stop shaking. So i just gave in and reached for the nearest bottle to fix it. It's been like this for about 1 year. Will i need to get help stopping or do you think i should try again on my own-and if not, where do i go for help? and what would it be like? i'm losing my life here

ho4ld4en, hello...
It's good that you have taken the first step in admitting you want to stop.
It's a giant step, and I applaud your honesty.

It jme, but what you are describing may be withdrawal from the alcohol. There is help available to ease these symptoms, help you through the worst of the physical.
Do you have a physician that would be willing to help you?
Is there a detox program in your area?
AA or another twelve step program? Members would know what is available in your town.

Fags is something I've not heard in a long time...weed?

Please let us know how you are doing, ok? You've already taken the first step by asking for help...
We Care

Cap

a fag is euro for cig...i think....i am still thinking though

ho4ld4en, I was only 15 when I went through my first rehab. I think that when teens are having problems with addiction that people tend to not notice the severity of it or to attribute it to "just teen experimentation." But, it is your life, not their life, so it is up to you to make some decisions about your alcohol abuse.

Going through detox/rehab is not a fun experience but there was noway I could have ever made it on my own. However, you may be different than me. Actually, I have been though detox and rehab 4 times. That's not something I'm really proud of but the 4th time through seems to have stuck with me. At least I can say I never gave up.

No matter what you decide to do--try it on your own or go to detox/rehab--don't give up until you are sober! My life is so much better now that I am clean and sober--now I am living life instead of being overpowered and controlled by addiction.

yes it means cig. Sorry from the UK everyone uses the word fag here

still thinking................................................................................

i agree with cap it sounds like you are suffering alcohol withdrawal which can lead to a seizure...the good news is you can do as cap suggested and speak with your doc about this, there are some meds one can use to get through the initial withdrawal or go into a detox center to be helped by a medical staff to get through this medically til you are out of the early withdrawal, about 3 days. based on your post it sounds like you will be better off getting medical help to help you with the innitial phase.
i too applaud you for your honesty. i drank like you do. you are waking up in about 2 hours cause your body is screaming for more alcohol. this is the addiction. your nervous system has been fooled by the alcohol to tell the brain you need it to survive. when your alcohol level in your blood lowers in 2 hours you are waking up in alcohol withdrawal.
i hope you will get help. forget the embarressement and get help either at school or through your doc or perhaps your parents. your very life may depend on your decision. it will not improve but only get worse if you don't stop (with help, IMHO). i had a grand mal seizure so i know a little about this happening. but don't let that info stop you now... you're already on the road to recovery by reaching out to us here. you can recover from alcohol use by abstinence and have a good life not needing the alcohol to "breathe air." that's how i described my life, breathing air, before i got clean and sober. i had no life. alcohol had me!!! it told me when to sleep, when to get up, when to drink and what i was going to do with my day....which was drink, dirnk, drink. i had no life.
i hope you will continue to let us know how you are doing. we truly do care about you and i will pray for you, jme. you will never regret it if you decide to get help.