[lilly212]

OK.... Ok.... so I have eaten barely anything in four days. I can't stop thinking about my weight. I put food in my mouth, and end up spitting it into a napkin and hiding it. I love food, I make food, but I can't eat it. I feel so fat. This is just beginning, and I'm scared. Most of the time this week I have just been obsessed with losing weight, I don't know what triggered this, but my body image is waaaaaay down. Sometimes, I freak out and tell myself to eat, but when I try, my brain stops me again and I can't because something in me convinces me food is bad. I don't want to get an eating disorder. I know it can get out of control and really lead to damage. But I'm having so much trouble convincing myself. Please help, I'm scared.

[ickle.Arnav]

You need to see a psychiatrist. You have an eating disorder. Restricting become chronic. Counting calories is a precursor. You're already down to what would be considered deadly. Go soon. Go now. Get help before you can't anymore.

[eskielover]

There has to have been some trigger that got you started thinking that you are fat......a comment by someone, a glance in the mirror that bothered you. Most of time the triggers are subtle.....but they are there & do exist & it's important to work through what that trigger is & not give into it being the truth or letting it drive you into the unacceptable behavior that turns into an ED.

For me, it's stressful situations that I go through....but they make me feel nausea & that's what causes me to not be able to eat.

Times like this you need to have the power over your brain...you know food isn't bad & if you are feeling that way....look for good healthy food & focus on the fact that your body needs the energy to function just like your car needs gas or it won't drive anywhere.

The bottom like is that you are the only one who can control your thinking.....if you are having serious problems with this then you need to get a professional that deals with ED's to help you sort through your thinking & get back on track before you end up letting it go too far out of control.

[minigrogs]

Have you felt this way before? I agree there might be some trigger and that it might be subtle. For example, if I feel bloated, and then weigh myself and am a little over my normal weight this can trigger me big time. Maybe you just felt bloated, and then thoughts impacted you from then on, I don't feel trigger has to be comment from someone else. Society gives us enough comments. Some people believe that because fat is not an actual feeling, "feeling fat" is like feeling sad, or something, perhaps there is some other emotion being expressed in this way. I feel I am not expressing that well, but anyway, I think its good that you realize what is going on. The starvation in itself can be addicting, and as someone else said could be good to speak with someone about this.

[lost_ina_world]

it may help to see a counciler