[buttrfli42481]

and now I feel like a fat pig. I had a bowl of cereal this morning and then one normal plate of food. I don't like it one bit. I feel so freakin fat that I now want to restrict all day tomorrow and the next day too. I can't do that though because my mom will be with me to make sure that I eat. I don't know how to get over this feeling. I didn't even enjoy dinner this year. I so badly want to call MCED, but it doesn't exist anymore. I could call my T, but she is busy with her family and I don't want to ruin her holiday, and I don't think that feeling this way is a true crisis. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I am so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suggestion? Don't be too hard on yourself. I know it's easier said than done but try. c: Are you underweight?

[buttrfli42481]

I don't know how much I weigh. The last time I was at the dietician, she said I had lost some weight. It is best for me to not know, because if I get over X number, I freak out and restrict real bad. I go to the dr tomorrow and the ED voice is telling me to find out how much I weigh, because I feel so fat right now.

:/ sorry
I wish I could help.

[whoswho]

Yeah, Thanksgiving was bad for me, too.

As far as suggestions go... The only thing I can think of is being extra nice to yourself right now, and reminding yourself that one day, ONE MEAL from one day, will not lead to drastic, drastic, drastic weight gain, despite what that little eating-disorder voice says. And feeling physically full is a very different thing from being fat.

Or just keep posting and reaching out to people you know. Distraction can work miracles sometimes.