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MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 12:27 PM

I have been banned there multiple times, last time was an IP ban.

So.. I came here! Posting under bipolar forum mostly.

That PF place was triggering for me. It was more full of wanna-be hard asses trying to one-up each other as opposed to a genuine sharing of inner feelings and discomfort. I, myself, tend to "reverse-front" and actually under play my abilities, so such people got on my nerves. I would much rather surprise someone with my inner darkness than force it upon anyone and everyone i can.. That is not beneficial for me.

Anyway, I will check this sub-forum from time to time to see if there is any activity

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 29, 2015, 04:33 PM

I'm not from psychforums, though I do confess to reading the posts in the ASPD forum when I get bored. HAHAHAHA. What a circus!

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I would much rather surprise someone with my inner darkness than force it upon anyone and everyone i can.. That is not beneficial for me.

That's exactly how I think about it too. I very much enjoy using the element of surprise.

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 04:42 PM

A circus indeed.. And for being "anti-social", a whole bunch of them regularly chat on Skype. Just a bunch of clowns.. But I have to admit, there is a lot of great discussion and mentally stimulating conversation that can occur as long as no one gets butt-hurt

Right? When you surprise someone, you gain control while they lose it.. I would rather someone make assumptions about me.. killing themselves by the Occam's Razor theory which states that the choice to pick should be the one with least assumptions..

I'll morph my identity all day.. gives them less and less information, and I gain more and more. Tee hee

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 29, 2015, 05:14 PM

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A circus indeed.. And for being "anti-social", a whole bunch of them regularly chat on Skype. Just a bunch of clowns.. But I have to admit, there is a lot of great discussion and mentally stimulating conversation that can occur as long as no one gets butt-hurt

Right? When you surprise someone, you gain control while they lose it.. I would rather someone make assumptions about me.. killing themselves by the Occam's Razor theory which states that the choice to pick should be the one with least assumptions..

I'll morph my identity all day.. gives them less and less information, and I gain more and more. Tee hee

Pfft, I prefer to operate alone or boss other people around. HAHAHA. I like discussions if they are actually interesting but most people are quite dull.

The bolded part is like reading about myself. Heh.

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 07:56 PM

Nice to meet you, babe!

Yeah i would prefer to operate alone unless in a position where being a boss is necessary.

I don't have much control as of now, so living by myself and doing my own thing are what i do most.. until i get that yummy corporate job

Once i suit up and have a paycheck that is determined by my good decision making, I will most definitely force my decisions onto the company as a whole, and whoever needs a reality check within it

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 29, 2015, 08:17 PM

Likewise dearie.

Operating alone is far less annoying, people are ****ing incompetent. Hahahaha!

I'm often told that I'm domineering and that I steamroll over people with my opinions. Well, it's not my fault I'm right all the time and that I'm outspoken about it. If that's all it takes to be considered callous then we live in a very weak society indeed.

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 09:36 PM

I know what you mean. I can be very social, but at heart i am a silent thinker, so when i talk you better ****ing listen because i am no ****-head.

Not only is society weak, as they envy psychopaths while simultaneously taking zombifiying antidepressants and anti-anxiety pills to try to reach their level of calmness, but they want to be steam rolled. Maybe not want to be, but certainly don't do anything about it.

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 29, 2015, 09:53 PM

I'm laughing, I know exactly what you're saying. People are often envious of me, they say it to my face that they are jealous of how calm I am, how charismatic I am, and how I have zero fear and will say exactly what I think, among many other things. Heh.

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 10:03 PM

Yeah, I am getting envious just thinking of you

The ones i usually get are - You are intense, You have no filter, and the women say "Did you ever even love me to begin with?". Tee hee

But most often, people do not analyze me to my face, and when i ask them about their opinion of me they will hesitantly say there is nothing wrong with me. Ug. Be real.. I won't bite

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 10:06 PM

Also a lot of people have no idea if i like them or not when we first meet.

The insecure think i hate them, and the narcissists think i love them. Go figure. I hate them all

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 29, 2015, 10:23 PM

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Originally Posted by MyUsername1111111

Yeah, I am getting envious just thinking of you

The ones i usually get are - You are intense, You have no filter, and the women say "Did you ever even love me to begin with?". Tee hee

But most often, people do not analyze me to my face, and when i ask them about their opinion of me they will hesitantly say there is nothing wrong with me. Ug. Be real.. I won't bite

Hahahaha!

I get "Did you ever even love me to begin with?" question every time I end a relationship. Naturally, I say, "of course not, duh."

I don't bite either, unless you're into that kind of thing... Heh.

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 29, 2015, 10:27 PM

Haha, I never admit to it.. i want the relationship to be a fairy tail in her mind.

Although, eventually i end up resenting the fact that i did not fully explain to my ex how disconnected i really am, and all of them i end up verbally harassing as i pull off the mask and explain how it was a fib from the start, until they remove me from their life. All of my ex's are still effected by me to this day, i would say.

But that doesn't come until a bit after the break-up. I like to at least see if they will willingly come back before i put the dagger in the heart

I love that king of thing! Not getting bit, though, just biting. I am an avid lip biter, titty biter, and in general just bite stuff especially when i drink.

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 30, 2015, 10:23 AM

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Haha, I never admit to it.. i want the relationship to be a fairy tail in her mind.

Although, eventually i end up resenting the fact that i did not fully explain to my ex how disconnected i really am, and all of them i end up verbally harassing as i pull off the mask and explain how it was a fib from the start, until they remove me from their life. All of my ex's are still effected by me to this day, i would say.

But that doesn't come until a bit after the break-up. I like to at least see if they will willingly come back before i put the dagger in the heart

I love that king of thing! Not getting bit, though, just biting. I am an avid lip biter, titty biter, and in general just bite stuff especially when i drink.

Yeah when I was a teenager I was more like you, keeping their little illusions about me going for as long as possible. As an adult I just prefer to stab them in the heart on the spot, it's fun, you should try it sometime!

My ex's typically stalk me for long after the relationship ends, it's like they just can't accept it and they get so obsessive. My most recent ex is still in love with me lol, she still contacts me in any way she can saying she wants to be friends but it's obvious she wants me back. Cracks me up.

My ex's will never forget me, I'll just put it that way. Heh.

Hahahahah, I like that kind of thing too. Biting people is fun, tee hee! And I do that stone cold sober too, lol. Though I do enjoy alcohol... Mmm.

MyUsername1111111 · 09:36 PM

I guess i can understand that as one gets older, one loses more inhibitions. Albeit, I am no child.

As I said, I do eventually stab the heart, but why burn a bridge that is still transporting goods to you? Is it merely for the reaction, and the resulting orgasm from witnessing such a loser getting crushed?

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 30, 2015, 09:38 PM

In your dreams. Heh.

So how old are you then dearie?

MyUsername1111111 · Mar 30, 2015, 10:39 PM

18 years young snookums

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Mattmx · Mar 31, 2015, 12:06 AM

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I guess i can understand that as one gets older, one loses more inhibitions. Albeit, I am no child.

As I said, I do eventually stab the heart, but why burn a bridge that is still transporting goods to you? Is it merely for the reaction, and the resulting orgasm from witnessing such a loser getting crushed?

Cause burning bridges is fun, and watching the owner on the other side try to repair it even though they know you blew it to pieces can be even more entertaining

Sinking Feeling · Mar 31, 2015, 12:17 AM

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Originally Posted by MyUsername1111111

I have been banned there multiple times, last time was an IP ban.

So.. I came here! Posting under bipolar forum mostly.

That PF place was triggering for me. It was more full of wanna-be hard asses trying to one-up each other as opposed to a genuine sharing of inner feelings and discomfort. I, myself, tend to "reverse-front" and actually under play my abilities, so such people got on my nerves. I would much rather surprise someone with my inner darkness than force it upon anyone and everyone i can.. That is not beneficial for me.

Anyway, I will check this sub-forum from time to time to see if there is any activity

I got banned there and crazyboards. Isn't it funny how the so-called most "liberal" forums usually end up being over mod and super sensitive. Both of those forms had more mods then members

MyUsername1111111 · 01:35 AM

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Cause burning bridges is fun, and watching the owner on the other side try to repair it even though they know you blew it to pieces can be even more entertaining

I see. I burn many a bridge, and watch amused as they frantically try to recover a relationship that was never there, but for a romantic relationship? Isn't that just a big waste of time?

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I got banned there and crazyboards. Isn't it funny how the so-called most "liberal" forums usually end up being over mod and super sensitive. Both of those forms had more mods then members

Yeah, I did not expect a board which encourages controversial discussion to end up banishing their most valued members. A couple others went with me in the last nazi-mod wipe out of Novermber '14.

Everyone gets everyone else all worked up. They do not understand that those who truly have a disorder become insanely triggered by such discussion and are bound to break out and post something somewhat disturbing.

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On another note - The only person i keep in contact with is a 40 year old clinical psychologist from the UK who read my posts on PF and inquires regarding my romantic relationships, as she tries to put the pieces together as to why her ex husband acts the way he does.

Funny; When I told her my age, her fantasy was crushed. I mean, a 40 year old with someone my age is not out of the question, but she is old enough to be my teenage-pregnancy mom.

MyUsername1111111 · 01:49 AM

Disaster - I didn't mean to be a sassafras toward you before i edited my post. I am coming up on acute mania and a lot of conceited ******s at work today pushed me the wrong way.

I have so much power over the everyday person that I "sell" to. Any client who applies the slightest of back-hands sees my face instantly morph, from the charismatic, lovable cutie, to the most intense, reptilian stare that they may ever feel from someone that they personally have a "connection" with. When I am hypomanic, I can see my environment constantly adapting to me.. catering to my all powerful intensity.

And for the idiots who misjudge the fact that I am in fact on the verge of frenzy, those who over look the fact that they are mere pawns in my game, i verbally harass them until their minds are filled with self defeating notions.. the most subtle of self suicide that these common folk have ever experienced.

This is not a movie, this is their life.. their sense of self. And it is crumbling before everyone's eyes with every wrongly made assumption regarding my personality. It is those who are closest to me who are truly petrified of opposing me.. and for common folk to walk around with their heads in the sky as if i could not be the pupeteer to their feeble mind.. well, let's just say this is why I exist. Not to teach them.. not to change them.. but to utterly crush their spirits and consume their deliciously pure, yet entirely frail, decrepit souls.

Danbo · Mar 31, 2015, 02:44 AM

I also hate conceited people. Were you guys abused as children?

MyUsername1111111 · 03:11 AM

I was not physically abused, but to this day my father continues the elaborate mirage of a perfect family, and it makes me ****ing Sick.

Recently he sent me the most heart-felt message that i have ever heard out of his pathetic mouth, keep in mind, via email. He has many means of contacting me. He wants to rekindle our relationship, as he just now is starting to realize how much his ****** *** has ****ed things up.

The catch is, he CC'd the email to 5 other of our close relatives.

This fat, pathetic, stunted child will die a lonely death.

I suspect he has strong NPD traits, which i absolutely resent in myself. Though him being a talker, me a thinker, I did develop a lot more antisocial traits. This is where we differ. He does not fully understand how little he means to me.

"You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you"

MyUsername1111111 · 04:20 AM

Sorry for getting all emo, but he is PERPETUATING MY BIPOLAR STATE AND HAS NO ****ING IDEA

Edit - I'm completely over it for now so let's talk about Miss Disaster, the Goddess, and her devious relationship tactics.

Ma'am, what prompts you to bite other people? Is it an oral fixation? Also, when you laugh in the face of your supposed partners, what is the resulting emotion that is so desirable? Do you only do this in person? I personally find it rarely gratifying crushing something from a distance. I don't want to live vicariously, i want to be on the front lines

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 31, 2015, 08:59 AM

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I also hate conceited people. Were you guys abused as children?

I was, but that's not relevant in my case. I was born this way.

Atypical_Disaster · 09:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Sinking Feeling

I got banned there and crazyboards. Isn't it funny how the so-called most "liberal" forums usually end up being over mod and super sensitive. Both of those forms had more mods then members

LMAO, what was your username on crazyboards? I remember some **** going down over there awhile ago. Heh.

MyUsername, lol don't worry about it. I'm not offended.

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