[anna342]

I thought the voices and patterns moving around when I close my eyes were a side effect of the medication, I was convinced of this. But when I finally get the courage to ask someone from the team i'm under (my normal contact is on leave) she says it's not the medication, more likely that it's anxiety. This is scaring me a lot. It's been years since this has happened, and only did when I was at my lowest point. I can't stop crying everytime I think about it.

In some ways I wish I'd not said anything to the team and just kept thinking it was a side effect. They're now going to make sure someone phones me each day to make sure I've not gone totally off the rails (my words, not theirs). I don't want more problems, I'm supposed to be getting better.

[Pikku Myy]

Hugs from here

[idontknow13]

((((anna342)))))
It is good that you have people who care about your welfare. I am sorry you are feeling bad and I hope you soon feel better

[anna342]

Thank you both.

I don't want to go to bed tonight, I don't want to believe it's happening.

[Pikku Myy]

You are welcomeHopefully you are already snoozing

Originally Posted by anna342

Thank you both.

I don't want to go to bed tonight, I don't want to believe it's happening.

[anna342]

Originally Posted by karoliinareddish

You are welcomeHopefully you are already snoozing

Nope, its 23.55pm, still here. No intention of going to bed yet anyway.

[Pikku Myy]

Truly hope you have a meeting/appt. scheduled with your dr/t? It is not fun being the only one up Been there Almost midnight to you! Have you tried meditation? It helps me relax quite a bit Like ... imagine a lolor you like... associate some memory... hopefully good with the color... go thru about 5 colors... until you get to the place or memory that is most peaceful or happiest for you... then come back... the same way... and close all the colors around you, and tell yourself you are ok and relaxed. The process should take about 20-30 mins.... but you may fall asleep while you are doing it Oh forgot... make sure you tense everything in your body before you begin... ie. say fingers... I am there... toes... I am there... spine... etc. Hope this helps Hugs and good night

Originally Posted by anna342

Nope, its 23.55pm, still here. No intention of going to bed yet anyway.

[anna342]

I don't have any appointments at the moment, I've just moved away, and will be moving to my final place soon, so I'm still under the old team where I used to live but can't really see them seeing as I'm over 100miles away.

Also I can't take any sedatives/tranqulisers, I abused them in the past and I it says all over my medical records not to give me anymore.

I will try your suggestion, if I can lay down without my panicking causing me to breath weirdly straight away.

Thanks for the replies.