[nire17]

I have been struggling with anxiety and panic attacks for months now. I am diagnosed with comorbid bipolar disorder. the panic and anxiety is intertwined with my mania and depression. Currently the swings between mania and depression have been quiet, however the anxiety is in full swing. I wake up in the night with panic attacks stemming from my dreams. I have debilitating anxiety first thing in the morning. I detest taking anxiety pills and do not want to be dependent on them, but i have found they are the only way there is any normalcy in my life these days. Because my last episode with mania and depression was so exhaustive to my support network, i have currently been suffering with the anxiety in silence. It is exhausting to constantly pretend to be fine. I am not fine. I wish there was a way to make the anxiety subside. Any suggestions??

[feary]

I know what you mean.

I hate these damn benzos but only they help

the mornings are horrible for me as well

I am curious about any suggestions too.

[nire17]

Originally Posted by feary

I know what you mean.

I hate these damn benzos but only they help

the mornings are horrible for me as well

I am curious about any suggestions too.

each evening I attempt to clear my head of all things. I keep trying to do nightly and morning meditations but I find I am still working on structure and schedule. It is my hope that as I close my eyes this evening that I will let go of whatever demons that dwell in my subconcious and create angst in my day and that I am greated with peace and tranquility tomorrow morning. Often I feel like I am getting punished for something. That I paying dearly for some terrible act committed in my past. I try to be good and kind and patient in the hopes that my current state of mental anguish eventually passes.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello nire, feary,

I am the same with the anxiety. I sit as quietly as I can during the day so that I don't upset DJ with it. But its like having a ferret in ya pants isn't it? up and down, round and about in every direction the anxiety is there, impossible ot escape at times.

I find that I am anxious before I wake up, coming out of a dream which mirrors what I want in life and the anxiety kicks in and mirrors what I have in life. So I have to get out of bed immediately, if I stay for even a minute the anxiety gets worse and I start to feel an attack coming on that will lead to a panic attack.

Straight away I start my day so that my mind is not free to wander on what it wants to obssess about. I can't fill in a day but I can stave off the worst by being occupied. That is one of the reasons I'm on PC all day most days. I have breaks but it is the one thing that keeps me sane I think. If the agitation starts to push through what I'm doing I get up and wander around for a while, and start something new that needs doing.

I really hope that you find something to ease your anxiety and panic,

Rhiannon

[feary]

I wish I could DO things

I try to clean, pay bills, cook or such things, but for some reason my anxiety takes over and it's like there is a barrier preventing me from doing it

like when I go to pick up things to put them away, my anxiety shoots sky high and then I have to avoid it and not do it

so for me also this evil computer has me trapped

[unico]

My anxiety often switches between being worse at night and being worse in the morning. I do have to take Klonopin for it. I'm not good at meditating, though I'm trying to be more mindful. I also am Bipolar, which exacerbates my anxiety.