[xxxflossyxxx]

i can't stop thinking about death and how comforting death is to me, i know these thoughts are very selfish but i can't stop them as i am typing this also to distract me from those thoughts. i seem to be trapped in a very dark space and can't get out. i don't want to die i may not be happy just now but who knows what the future brings and yet it disturbs me how much comfort i find in thinking about death its like i have no control over myself, i have managed to take control and stop me hurting me at the last second, what the hell is that about, like i said i don't want to die but what if next time i don't regain control what then it scares me its like suicide but not with my consent if that makes any sense.

any advice please i am grateful
takecare all xxx.

[Mrhomercat]

Sorry to hear of your dilemma, persevere my friend. When these feelings start to rage inside you, take 10 deep breaths, inhale slowly through your nose and into your belly, hold for 5 seconds and exhale slowly through your mouth. Repeat this 10 times, then log on to this site and write whatever comes to mind. Please hold on friend, we here on PC don't care about spelling our gramme, we care about YOU!

[feary]

I wish I could trade with you (no i don't because no one should feel the way I do)

I am terrified of dying and death and it seems horrible and even if I wanted to do something to end my life I couldn't

I am just so uncomfortable with death

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((flossy)))) ((((feary))))

How poignant that you are juxtaposed in your dilemmas and that you meet here at PC. I wonder if the two of you can help each other. Both lovely people who deserve better than the lot that you received; I can only offer you my support and best of intentions and wishes for both of you