[Goldenair]

My problems had been building up since childhood and now im 18 and whole day im tensed and crazy and whatever, i cant talk properly anymore, i keep thinking how im going to explain my problems to someone. Whenever im alone i keep talking about how ill explain this and that but when im infront of anyone I dont know what to tell. I dont enjoy anything anymore, probably enjoyed first 10 years of life, then i realised people are looking at me, from then on everything went down, idk what to do now

[Cyclowolf]

Hi Goldenair,

Welcome to Psych Central, You'll find all the support you need here. I've gone through phases like that, Have you been diagnosed with Anxiety or seen a psychiatrist, cause it sounds like your anxiety has caused you to have some trouble with depression too. I would talk to a doctor and see what they say and remember doctors have seen almost everything before, so there's no need to be selfconscious. As to what to say to them, something like this, "I've had trouble with anxiety for about as long as I can remember, recently it's gotten so bad I can't talk to anyone anymore and when I try to it comes out all jumbled up. I've lost all interest in things I used to enjoy. I feel paranoid, like everyone is looking at me." Just write down how you feel and take the notes with you. I hope this answers your question somewhat. And again Welcome to PC!

Cyclowolf

Originally Posted by Goldenair

My problems had been building up since childhood and now im 18 and whole day im tensed and crazy and whatever, i cant talk properly anymore, i keep thinking how im going to explain my problems to someone. Whenever im alone i keep talking about how ill explain this and that but when im infront of anyone I dont know what to tell. I dont enjoy anything anymore, probably enjoyed first 10 years of life, then i realised people are looking at me, from then on everything went down, idk what to do now

i can kind of relate, but with me, it's because of my childhood

growing up, i had no one who really wanted to listen and when i explained my feelings, i'd be somehow punnished for it- that could be mentally, or physical. sometimes both

so now i can't talk... i know what i want to say, but when it comes to writing or saying it, i can't- as i asociate it with bad things.
i know it's not really the same thing, but yeah.. just wanted to give my experiences

[avlady]

Yes it sounds like anxiety, maybe you can go on meds? I know i've been on them for over 30 years and they've helped me stay sane!!

[Goldenair]

thats the problem, im afraid of saying that i need a doctor or psychiatrist, no one is expecting me to say something like that so idk

[Goldenair]

idk how im going to say something very unexpected about me to anyone, im afraid of what reaction they will give

[Gus1234U]

some times these feelings are from things that happen to us, sometimes they are from a malfunction of the brain. there are skills to help you cope with having the feelings, and not letting them rule you.

there is a post in the PTSD forum , on Anxiety Management Skills that might be of interest to you~ it's kind of dated, so you might have to use the Search Bar to find it~

i hope you find a way to get free of those feelings,, they diminish life so much~'

best wishes~
Gus

[Nla210787]

Speaking up about your issue might be scary at first but you are not alone by any means! The faster you get help the better and believe me once you do get the help you need you will wish you hadn't waited so long! That's how I feel!

[Goldenair]

I know its too late but ill try , plus university is starting tomorrow, i dont want to go, at school i used to think i would die before going university, idk how im supposed to interact with students or teachers, i just dont want them to see me