[valfor]

Hi there it has been awhile since I have been here .......there has been so much depressing stuff that has happened in such a short time and it put my anxiety thru the roof..thought I wouldn't make it. Of course my computer crashed thru all this I had no where to turn . Psych Central was my crutch so I am so glad to be back.
Let's see I was here last I think in August my brother who is 18 months older than me found out he had cancer stage 2 had some aggressive treatments of radiation in the mean time my younger brother who is 2 yrs younger ( he had been dealing with liver disease) ended up in the ICU and died there 2 weeks later, he died Sept 15th. My other brother who has cancer is just done with treatments and now it's a wait to see if it is gone, my dad was diagnosed with Alziemers last spring and is now in a personal care home doesn't even know his son died or even who i am anymore. My mom does not want to live anymore and the last time I saw her a month ago told me this might be the last time you see me!
I also have my daughter who is still trying to get out of a country where she has no rights as a women, she and her brother were taken by there dad 16 yrs ago and we have contact by phone, the last time I talked to her after my brother died she was begging me to please help her come home because she is being physically abused It breaks my heart because there is nothing that I could do but listen to her.
My chest aches all the time the anxiety I deal with just about everyday I am becoming a recluse don't go anywhere haven't washed my hair in a week I eat and eat, starting to drink more...I should know better my brother just died from it but I cannot help it I drink and then feel regret which makes me feel even worse. I just sit here and always try not to cry I am afraid if I do I will not be able to stop and that would finally put me over the edge where I will lose my mind.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello valfor,

Wow you've really had a major load to carry. Please accept my condolences for your brothers death. I really hope your other brother is now cancer free. My sister was stage 4 cancer and was treated and is now cancer free, so please have heart.

Your mother needs help so maybe you could contact the local mental health team and get her some assistance? I know it is hard to deal with but by her telling you that may have been the last time you saw her, is her way of asking for help.

Your other sister really does need help. You know where ever she is there are laws that protect people from physical abuse. How old is she? because getting to an air port and getting out of the country would be hard enough; if she can get hold of her passport then maybe the American embassy may be able to help her in some way?

You take care and keep posting so that we can support you

[valfor]

Thank-you Riannonsmoon for your kind words, I to pray that my brother is cancer free the only problem is they can't find the primary source so it means he has to get checked all the time because it can return.
Mt mother on the other hand refuses to talk to anyone she is a very proud women and will not admit she may need help.
My daughter on the other hand can get no help from our embassy because they cannot intervene with the laws of that country because they are only guests and basically told me the only way out would be to wrap her up in a rug and escape.
I am so at my wits end and feel so helpless I am so tiried!!!!!!!!!!emotionally!!