[Yack]

I am going nuts.

I don't know how to solve this.

I am living somewhere I hate.

I was sick for 9 mo 2002-2003.

Abusive relationship for 9 mo 8 months after that.

I am scared, alone, i have no support system, no back up plans, no idea where to head from here, recovering from ptsd, miserable.

i managed to finish this paper.

but i wake up every day in utter fear. nightmare. when are we going to move...when will i get some relief from living here.

i need to move. i don't know where to. i don't know if i can do it alone after everything i have been through.

i am drowning. that;s how it feels....lost.

[wintergreen]

I'm not sure what advice to give you, but I want to let you know that I understand at least some of what you're going through.

I suffer from anxiety and spent years grappling with whether or not I should move to another city. I was so deathly afraid that I'd end up homeless or totally screwed, that I'd totally ruin my life.

I finally decided to move and everything is fine. If I can do it, I'm sure you can, too. You just have to do a little planning financially and know that you can count on yourself.

I spent years being so fearful that I was almost paralyzed. I hope you find relief. xoxox pat

[ozzie]

(((((((((((Yack))))))))))) I hope it helped to talk last night. One thing I think is important is don't make any major decisions when you are this upset.

Talk to your parents and talk to us. We're all here for support.

[Yack]

Thank you guys...

I am still not sleeping and very tired...not good at all

I am ok, the psychiatrist says I am getting better...situational due to what happened to me...

However....I can't SLEEP. even with 10 mg ambien.

It's been going on a week, since I had to write my paper.

Ugh.

I am sleeping from 6 am - 2pm. Ugh again.

[dottie]

<font color="#000088">Jackie can you ask your Pdoc to try you on Remeron for sleep? It's helped me greatly with my sleeping probs. Good wishes for good sleep! </font>

[hillbunnyb]

Yack, Hey, I'm so sorry you're going through it so intensely right now. Not sleeping is such a hard one. until we can sleep, we can't think straight. Everything starts spinning out of control, getting bigger and bigger until we're just swamped and miserable. I gave up sleep by clock, I go whenever my body will let me. (But, I have no schedule to keep.) May the sleep fairy take special care of you.......