[Kashia]

I have been involved in a "situation" for 9 mos now.

I can not work due to Gen Anxiety Disorder because of this situation.

My question is- I am in such acute state sometimes, I am experiencing

others-

Dr's, even one therapist, look at me like I am crazy and seem to want to get

away.

The situation I am in is crazy and when I begin talking about it- its so

very bizarre- I sense others, even those I seek help from - pull away.

I do not understand. if anyone can give some insight or tell of your experience

that is even a little like this, maybe I can begin to understand.

I have wondered today- are we suppose to be "appropriately anxious" or

something? I just talk to the people I seek help from, explain the situation I

am involved in. thank you

[lynn P.]

(((Kashia))) -can you explain more what this acute state is like and why you think doctors want to get away?? I'm sorry you're suffering and hope you get relief soon.

[Open Eyes]

Kashia,
Oh, I can understand what you mean. I have had similar situations and it makes it worse as I know I am having a severe attack and it seems as if I am not beleived.

I am seeing a new therapist as I suffer badly from PTSD, and that is part of why I have these terrible attacks. At least this therapist knows what it means and I have found comfort in that fact.

Are there things going on that are triggering these anxiety attacks you are having?
Have you seen a therapist? Often regular doctors shy because they know this is something that has to do with psycological issues of some kind and they don't really have an expertise in this area. And they tend to shy from giving anti-anxiety drugs as well do to thier inability to deal with any psycological issues.

Now a psychiatrist will know what you are dealing with as well as a therapist. But it is the psychiatrist that will be the one that will prescribe medication to treat this.

Calm down, you are not alone and I know, as well as many others here, how frightening an attack can be.

Try to find a good therapist or psychiatrist to help you.

Open Eyes

[Kashia]

To both of you above. thank you for your reply. I am on an anti anxiety med and it helps
if and when I can adjust the dose to fit the anxiety level. always less than prescribed-if I took the prescribed dose I would not be able to function- so I adjust. I also have some PTSD.
But the "situation" is my trigger. and it is also something I have to- in a practical sense- deal with.
I have recently moved and having to get settled in with new people and was seeing a therapist before. I do many healthy healing things to help me deal- visualization. find books or CD's from experienced people. try to meditate. but I am in a spin. and I guess my original question was this detachment I feel from others. this space between needing to feel like I can relate with another person - like this new therapist or new doctor and my strong intuitive sense that they can not deal with "the story" it is so bizarre. so I feel I am being judged which further exacerbates my anxiety because now I have "the situation" going on plus I am being looked upon as or not being taken seriously when I describe the events going on. Some long time friends say " if I did not know you I would think you were making this up".
So much of the time I can not get so caught up in "my story" realizing everyone has some kind of story. and many have had to bear much worse. but there is nothing easy about this bearing on your own and not being able to relate to others about it.
longer than intended post. but here in these forums I find people I feel relate and easily share kindness. much appreciated.

[Open Eyes]

Kashia,

ME TOO, I COULD WRITE THE SAME POST. I understand about the spin and how it realates to the PTSD and wouldn't it be so nice if it would just go away?

And no, no matter how hard I try, others just don't understand, very hard, and embarrassing and frustrating. Yes it is nice to come to PC and hear that others have the same issues. Not that I would want to wish this on anyone. But just knowing that it is PTSD realated, well, at least Im not crazy.

Open Eyes

[Kashia]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

Kashia,

ME TOO, I COULD WRITE THE SAME POST. I understand about the spin and how it realates to the PTSD and wouldn't it be so nice if it would just go away?

And no, no matter how hard I try, others just don't understand, very hard, and embarrassing and frustrating. Yes it is nice to come to PC and hear that others have the same issues. Not that I would want to wish this on anyone. But just knowing that it is PTSD realated, well, at least Im not crazy.

Open Eyes

Yes, I find here, in this place, I find people that understand. and relate.
My daily perceptions seem to have a rhythm. Sometimes unbearable, sometimes pain distant or seems like it is gone. Sometimes I have enough clarity to just go into the feeling
and if I do not add "a story line" to it, I can get to the other side- or beyond. then other times, it is so intense. it is those times when I may to talking to another- by their energy or actions- that it is beyond what they can understand or even want to be around.
And I just wondered if others feel this distance from people too. thank you for replying.

[Hiding]

hi. I have gen anxiety disorder too and think maybe some ptsd too .

I have high anxiety all the time esp now and will get worse in mths to come (mom is sick- cancer)
Also I have 'others' supossively DDNOS but well sometimes i stuggle with denial alot and think maybe its all just bad perception and maybe I am making it all up or something. It makes me feel bad to think maybe I would do something like that and not realize it.
Sorry getting off subject..
If you are in a triggering situation, is there someway to ease it or get out of the situation?

and yeah I understand..I mean it is hard enough to deal with my own doubts and denials about me/us but to have other outside people doubt and judge me or think i could be lying just makes it worse.. as it is I constantly worry what others think of me/us and worry about them judging me/us negatively. =/
Hope things get easier for you. Please know you are not alone ok?
Lisa

[lokeluche]

Originally Posted by Kashia

Yes, I find here, in this place, I find people that understand. and relate.
My daily perceptions seem to have a rhythm. Sometimes unbearable, sometimes pain distant or seems like it is gone. Sometimes I have enough clarity to just go into the feeling
and if I do not add "a story line" to it, I can get to the other side- or beyond. then other times, it is so intense. it is those times when I may to talking to another- by their energy or actions- that it is beyond what they can understand or even want to be around.
And I just wondered if others feel this distance from people too. thank you for replying.

Kashia. Yes I can relate to a point also. I have anxiety disorders and panic attacks and very few people know it. People who have not experienced this have no idea how painful it is. I had to stop working also because of this. I used to say " I would not wish it on my worst enemy".

Doctors in general do not even understand it. I think people would pull away too like I have a contagious disease. It is very frustrating and you feel so lonely ! It seems that only people who are sufferers themselves understand it very well. Others do not. Sometimes I fantasize about a machine which could induce a really bad panic attack to some people and then I think they would be a lot more understanding.

[Kashia]

Originally Posted by lokeluche

Kashia. Yes I can relate to a point also. I have anxiety disorders and panic attacks and very few people know it. People who have not experienced this have no idea how painful it is. I had to stop working also because of this. I used to say " I would not wish it on my worst enemy".

Doctors in general do not even understand it. I think people would pull away too like I have a contagious disease. It is very frustrating and you feel so lonely ! It seems that only people who are sufferers themselves understand it very well. Others do not. Sometimes I fantasize about a machine which could induce a really bad panic attack to some people and then I think they would be a lot more understanding.

a machine. made me smile, thank you. maybe, I thought, that is what happened- I was induced into a machine