[lostone]

HI all.. me again.

How do people cope with this.. everyday is a constant struggle.. I have a fear that I am dying!! What would cause such a fear? How do I overcome it? I just was told that I have benign vertigo,, so the dizzy spells I have been having was that. Why do I still think I have brain tumor? why can't I just feel GOOD? I am so confused and tired of worrying, of feeling fatigue,, and doctors say I am healthy. Why don't I feel it? I don't want to die.. not yet.. and I cant' handle this fear of mine.. am I crazy or does anyone else suffer this? I don't believe the doctors.. they wont do catscan or mri.. they don't think since the other tests came back normal that there is reason to do it. Please tell me that I am worrying over nothing and that if there were anything to worry about the doc would of found it!!

[(JD)]

(((lost))) I'm so sorry to hear how much this anxiety is upsetting you. IMO you're thinking such terrible fears because you do have anxiety. Others get though this a few ways<ul type="square">[*]go to talk therapy and learn how to ground yourself[*]take medication to help you while you learn how to calm yourself[*] both of the above[/list]
Anxiety can cause vertigo, especially if you tend to hold your breath, which many of us with anxiety tend to do. Therapy is hard work, it's even harder if you won't allow a doctor to talk you through it. What else have you tried, in solving this?

There's probably nothing wrong if doctors have checked you out. I would try some things specifically for anxiety first, then if they don't help go for the cat scan. I know good therapy will give you relief, at least in worrying about what if... and will allow you to plan on how to be sure. TC

[lostone]

thank you for your reply...
Just feel like I can't handle things anymore... I am so worried all the time.. I did start seeing a therapists.. onlt went once so far. Took xanax but it made me even more dizzy and made my legs really weak. Don't know what to do anymore.. I don't want these fears or feelings. Does vertigo ever go away? Is there a way to stop it?

Jen

[(JD)]

Vertigo can be helped with medication in many instances. It's often caused by fluid in the inner ear being out of balance (no pun intended.) I think. My vertigo used to be really terrible.. and I do have flare ups of it. I had to pull off the roadway when it began while I was driving. (um YEah.) It can go away on it's own.

Work with your T; when do you see him again? You could log what you eat/drink it might be an allergy to a particular food or even perfume that's causing it?

[jmo531]

You are so not alone in the way you are feeling. Anxiety/Panic Disorder is scary, a paralizing fear that intrudes on your world.

I spent months convinced that I am insane, dying and that I have some disease or another. I still have my bouts every now and again.

Your not alone. Beleive me your not alone.

Check out this web site. http://www.apa.org/pubinfo/panic.html.

It will give you symptoms that commonly occur with anxiety attacks and will help ease your mind. At least reading it in black and white helped ease my mind.

I hope that this passes for you soon. Please post as often as you need. Also, please feel free to PM me if needed. Take good care of yourself.

Huggles,

Jen

[Juniper]

Hi- you are definitely not alone. I have so many of your fears. I would love to talk to someone who feels similarly to me.

[lostone]

Thank you all for your responses!! It means a great deal to have people who have been threw or are going through the same things. Not that I would wish this on anyone.

Well physcologists perscribed LEXAPRO and ATIVAN.. never taken lexapro,, scared of allergic reactions( one of my many fears )

Its like I wake up and focus all day,,, waiting for a attack of vertigo.. I keep trying to tell myself that docs said nothing to worry about,, "you are HEALTHY" why can't I just accept that and live happy?? why does everyday have to be a struggle, I am in constant anquish and mentally, physically and emotionally I am a wreck! All because I just don't feel healthy. How can a brain deceive you so much.. to the point of literally controlling your life!! I hate this so much and just wish there was a MAJIC BUTTON

[Maven]

By "benign vertigo," I assume you mean benign positional vertigo. That's what I have. It comes and goes. I'll have it for a few days or a few weeks when I lie or move in certain positions, then it goes away for a few months, then comes back. It's annoying, but not serious. It's caused by crystals in the ear that roll around in the wrong place. Sometimes you can get relief by leaning forward and rolling your upper body in one direction or the other, thereby shifting the crystals. Eventually they disintegrate or dissolve or whatever, and that's when it goes away for a few months.

I get irrational fears sometimes that I'm going to have a heart attack. I'm terrified of having a heart attack, so I worry about it a lot. All I can tell you is to try to focus on other things, find something to do, get your mind off it, if you can find a way to do so. I'm not a doctor, but if you had a brain tumor, you'd probably have a constant severe headache as well.

[Myzen]

Hi lostone,

Yes, I've had anxiety for most of my life. The really odd thing is that, although we fear being physically ill, the anxiety is actually worse than being physically ill.

My father had anxiety attacks all through his life. But when he was finally ill with cancer, he didn't complain about the cancer at all, even with all the pain. He just carried on with the anxiety, obsessing over things just like before - things he didn't like on TV or a dripping tap in the kitchen.

I couldn't believe that an anxiety illness could be that strong, but it was. It was then that I realised that the real enemy in this illness is our own thinking, and that is where to start the therapy work.

It's a long haul, but we have to do it, IMHO.

Good thoughts, M

[ByAThread]

Its a forever process. Is there ever healing? A cure? does anyone know?