[AnotherDayDown]

My anxiety has been thru the roof. The kids are driving me insane, and I just found out I'll be alone with them for another WEEK. My husband went on a work trip, which I didn't agree with...and now I'm stuck with all the work of caring for two babies. One is an overactive toddler and the other suffers from reflux. Add in the puppy and I'm a wreck. I'm so mad he left me here, regardless of the money.

We got our new furniture in today, only to find out the couch is too big for our living room, so its all cramped and looks weird. I am too busy to steam clean the stains out of the carpet, and I am too short to hang up pictures. I can't hang the curtains, and even now the baby is crying. I just want to cry. The house smells like trash because I can't leave the kids here to go to the dumpster. I just want to crawl in bed and hide. But I can't do that either.

[meadowsweet]

Im sorry youre feeling so unsupported right now. I think when theres too much on...its healthy to remind yourself that whats importyant is yours and your childrens health - the washing up thats piling up and the grubby paw prints on the floor matter less compared to your health and well being. I hope that tomorrow will be better for you.

[AnotherDayDown]

Originally Posted by meadowsweet

Im sorry youre feeling so unsupported right now. I think when theres too much on...its healthy to remind yourself that whats importyant is yours and your childrens health - the washing up thats piling up and the grubby paw prints on the floor matter less compared to your health and well being. I hope that tomorrow will be better for you.

You're right. I shouldn't worry about the small stuff. I don't know why it bothers me so much when things are out of order. Even though I took my medicine today, it didn't really help. I couldn't just relax. I'm trying really hard to be there for them, but I'm just starting to wear thin. It's already been a week. The only people around are my parents, and they are no help. I have a friend Mandi, but she's got 3 kids of her own...so going over there would just add to my stress. Tomorrow should be a better day. I just have to get thru this evening. Two more hours and I can put the toddler to bed. And maybe if I pray hard enough, the baby will stay quiet a few more minutes so I can get myself together.

[AnotherDayDown]

I made it thru the evening I just feel guilty for getting upset about him being gone. I tried to get off the phone with him, so he wouldn't know I was upset...but he just kept calling. And now I feel bad because his buddy feels bad about me feeling bad. ugh, why isn't this pill working today???? I'd take another one but I'm scared of totally zoning out. I hope I can sleep. I just have to breathe and remind myself that none of this is really that important. This is me ->