[Ipod1]

Someone please help me or tell me you've been here and came through this. I literally feel nothing like my old self. Don't think the same, have the same emotions, don't feel the same, have crazy thoughts, random thoughts. I really think I've lost myself for good. I do have a psychiatrist and a t that I talk to. But I don't think they get it when I tell them all of this. They say it's anxiety OCD and depression but I've had all that since I was 16, now I'm 22 and I'm in the age range for schizophrenia and I was so scared of that for the past two months and now I feel like I'm there. Idk why but im just not normal anymore. I just want my life back. It's got to the point where I don't care what I have. I just want it to happen, get better or get worse so it can be treated as soon as possible. I'm so tired of all of this I can't deal with it much anymore. I feel like I'm just hanging on by a thread and I'm just gonna snap. I hope someone has felt this before. Help!

[caffeine_nerdiness]

Originally Posted by Ipod1

Someone please help me or tell me you've been here and came through this. I literally feel nothing like my old self. Don't think the same, have the same emotions, don't feel the same, have crazy thoughts, random thoughts. I really think I've lost myself for good. I do have a psychiatrist and a t that I talk to. But I don't think they get it when I tell them all of this. They say it's anxiety OCD and depression but I've had all that since I was 16, now I'm 22 and I'm in the age range for schizophrenia and I was so scared of that for the past two months and now I feel like I'm there. Idk why but im just not normal anymore. I just want my life back. It's got to the point where I don't care what I have. I just want it to happen, get better or get worse so it can be treated as soon as possible. I'm so tired of all of this I can't deal with it much anymore. I feel like I'm just hanging on by a thread and I'm just gonna snap. I hope someone has felt this before. Help!

There are actually several different types of schizophrenia, each with it's own set of symptoms. You might want to check out some of the literature put out by the National Institutes of Health and check what you're feeling with their symptom lists. One thing to remember though is that if your perception of reality starts to change, you should definitely make said change very clear to your t and psychiatrist. A number of mental health issues can cause fairly rapid and universal changes in self-perception, thoughts, and feelings. If you can keep a mood journal and document symptoms and feelings from day to day, you could show that to your psychiatrist and t as evidence that they should take you seriously. I've had times where I felt like I was losing touch with my real self. I also struggle with fairly serious self-doubt and other self-perception issues in addition to my other mental health issues, so please don't feel that you have to go through this alone. Has anything happened in your life that might correlate with the onset of the symptoms you're describing?

[Ipod1]

Nothing as in any substance abuse or anything. It kinda started about a year ago I guess when I was stressing about my relationship, the past 3 months is when it got really bad. I went to the hospital for fainting, girlfriend left me, seemed like nothing was going right for me in life. A lot of stressors. I can't figure out if all of that could cause all of this or not. I'm going to try and take a journal most definitely. Hopefully it doesn't get any worse in the next couple weeks, or ever. I just wanna get better. I've heard if you're worried about losing reality you haven't yet. Just hoping this is true.

[caffeine_nerdiness]

Originally Posted by Ipod1

Nothing as in any substance abuse or anything. It kinda started about a year ago I guess when I was stressing about my relationship, the past 3 months is when it got really bad. I went to the hospital for fainting, girlfriend left me, seemed like nothing was going right for me in life. A lot of stressors. I can't figure out if all of that could cause all of this or not. I'm going to try and take a journal most definitely. Hopefully it doesn't get any worse in the next couple weeks, or ever. I just wanna get better. I've heard if you're worried about losing reality you haven't yet. Just hoping this is true.

In any case, I wish you the best of luck. Your concern for your mental health is a very good indicator that you'll find answers and an appropriate treatment plan. Whatever happens, remain persistent with your psychiatrist and t. Stessors aren't always the direct cause of the symptoms you've described, but they could certainly exacerbate or set off any existing conditions.

[Ipod1]

Thanks for the encouragement. Eventually I'll figure it out. One way or another.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Wish I had seen this post sooner.

I hope things are better for you.

Many doctors and therapists, in my experience are too into diagnosing and not into listening and feeling the patient. Not all of them, but it is pretty sad when we go for help and they don't seem to connect or empathize with us.

thanks for your post.

Billi

[Ipod1]

Yes I agree they don't seem to care a whole lot. My therapist is really nice, but my psych the one that's really important doesn't seem to care to much.