[SerenitysWave]

<font color="purple"> Things are looking up for me, I told my parents about past abuse that they didnt know about (posted in the survivors of abuse forum), but my anxiety is still high.... I dont know if it is my body reacting to the rapid increase of dosages of my medicine, I am only at the 50 mark now and tomorrow will be at the 100, then a week will be at 150 then two weeks after at 200, or what is going on. I will call my doc today though. Things are going well otherwise in my life. I have the support of my family and friends and employer, but it is really getting very hard to leave my house.... I still am waking up in an instant attack. I have been forcing myself to get out because I am so afraid that if I dont I will become totally disabled by this.... I dont know, just so much going on I guess especially in my head. One thing at a time Melinda I tell myself, one day at a time, its isnt going to happen over night.... Oh but I want to too!!! What no drive thru therapy in this day and age?!? How unacceptable! Please know I jest! Just wishing there was a miracle cure.... </font>

[Rhapsody]

I am here for YOU if you ever need someone to talk to about the anxiety that tries to confine you to the house.... for I am there now and I too am working hard to leave my house as much as I can.... with or with the fear attached.

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

i had two months of it this summer. PM me if you need to. xoxox pat

[Myzen]

(((((((((((((((((Melinda))))))))))))))))))))

Good thoughts, M

[SerenitysWave]

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Rhapsody said:
I am here for YOU if you ever need someone to talk to about the anxiety that tries to confine you to the house.... for I am there now and I too am working hard to leave my house as much as I can.... with or with the fear attached.

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

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<font color="purple">Thank you Rhapsody, I truly appreciate your offer! Something that I noticed is if I have a planned outing I have more anxiety than if I spontanneously need to leave. Yesterday my MIL called and needed me to take her to ger haircut at that very moment, and I felt good, very mild anxiety..... But the day before I new I had to go out and do some errands and I had high anxiety knowing that I had to leave. I actually left, did one errand, almost had to call to have my parents pick me up b/c I wasnt sure I could drive, but worked thru it.... Then came home, and waited a while and forced myself to go out again and finish the rest of my errands. During which my anxiety was up and down. I am suppose to go back to work next week, I took this week off and most of last week b/c I couldnt handle the anxiety anymore. I hope the meds kick in soon. </font>

[SerenitysWave]

<font color="purple"> Thank you Pat and myzen.... It helps knowing that others can relate and understand what I am going through and feeling. The support here is terriffic!! </font>

[Rhapsody]

Boy can I ever relate to that statement.... that our anxiety level goes up if and when we have to plan an outing or a special event - I hate when that happens, but what is a person to do? When I have to go to Wal-mart or Winn-Dixie (about every 2 weeks) I just plan my trip early in the morning when there is less likely to be any of my triggers around.... young sexy females.

Hang in there..... it will lessen some over time, but I cannot say it will lessen all together - for mine has not and I have been working on it for 2 straight years, maybe longer.
Learn to lean on ME and the many others on here in your times of need and despair.... we all care.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Lexicon78]

(((((Melinda)))))

Please take care of yourself.