[lavendersteph]

i have all these symtoms that are new to me some old but i can't shake the feeling that i might have a horrible disease and that i'm going to die i keep getting that irritating sting in the top of my head and the pressure in my right eye some ppl have told me it's stress related in 05 i had so much stress where do i begin i had a new job broke up with my long time boyfriend and his parents starting drama plus probs at work then getting 2 pups which have brought me joy but it sressing because i'm now unemployed and my pup is sick no cash for vet so that was bugging me then my sis took him he is better but i had to surrender him to her . plus hurricane wilma brought disater to our house we had to fight the insurance for more money to repair now my dad is the prob he wants to put the money into the principal of the house to lower the mortgage i'm so stress because that money should be used to fix our roodf and other probs in the house it's so much for me i have never had this much stuff going on in my life plus am deprssed because my so called best freind is getting married this sat i'm not going i was invited but she has been distant with me plus i was really hurt that she did not make me part of her bridal court it hurts because i thought she was my best friend i was wrong it was a slap in the face when i was dating her cousin she was always with us i would chaperone her and her boyfriend from 8am till midnight becaus ehe lived 6 hours away she wanted alot of time with him we always said that if one of us got married we would be in our bridal courts she basically hurt me i got her a gift for the wedding i still want her friendship i just don't want her as my bf anymore that is a special tittle only given to ppl who deserve it so maybe all of this has affected me big time to the point that i am physically ill i have been to the hospital 3 times in a month i'm in debt it's so much for me i dunno what to do for relief i'm on meds that only calm my anxiety but put me to sleep the entire day i need some advice and friends very lonely and scared.

stephy

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

I feel your PAIN & SORROW.... I am right there with YOU and my ears are wide open - talk away!!!


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[lavendersteph]

thank u so much for understanding its so hard for right now ifeel like i have no friends i'm begining to turn into a home body i have agoraphobia now

[Rhapsody]

ME too - I also understand that feeling............................ and I hate that I have to live this way, a prisoner in my own house.

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( COMFORT )))))))


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Azalysa]

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Sounds like a bunch of stuff has been happening to and around you lately - any ONE of those situations would be stressful. You are strong to be surviving them all.

Do you have a doctor or therapist? If not, I would highly recommend at least a therapist to help sort out your anxieties and have someone to support you emotionally.

Like Rhapsody said...we're here for you and to listen....

[lavendersteph]

thanks for the reply i am seeing a psychologist but the meds he gave me makes me moody and puts me to sleep the entire day i can't live like that i feel so stressed with everything what bothers me the most is my so called friend who is getting married her behavior has just left me with my mouth wide open i never thought she would do that to me she told me it's nothing personal but she is getting married in our church and she said i was not spritually well enough to be in her court i was like what ever just because i miss a couple of meetings does not mean i am not well with god that was so rude who is she to judge me only god can i never met a person that would say something like to me ....what ever

[Junerain]

The part of your post that got to me was both breaking up with yuor boyfriend and losing a job..if I lost either my job or a boyfriend I'd be a wreck! What were the circumstances of the break up? What were the circumstances about losing the job? I have gotten fired from fifty-one jobs, so I feel for you it is a big part of the pain in my life. Write more about how you feel, get it all out.

[lavendersteph]

i quit my job because it was going no where i had been there for a year and they wanted to keep me where i was while others in the same position as me were getting promoted and had been there less time then me which really offended me they said i was the best hostess they ever had and needed me there it took them 7 months to promote me to server then i was getting ****** shifts there was a whole lot aof favoratism there i quit and took it to corparate and for my ex i broke up with him i was not in love he proposed to me and i freaked and realized that what i felt for him was not love but just endearment he is like family to me we are on good terms he is a doll the best person ever but i can't see myself married to him..

[Junerain]

You stood up for yourself, which is more than I would have done for myself..I think you have strength, lavendersteph. I would love my dinner being brought over by you!! With your boyfriend you sound like you knew yourself very well and didn't settle. So tell me, how are you feeling now?

[lavendersteph]

just peachy keen i have a few probs there but i feel great today no headaches are anything though i'm so hungrey i could it a elephant lol well thanks for responding you are sweet so take care and thanks for all your support ..

[heartspace]

Glad to hear you're having a good day.