[TheSilentEmpath]

Anxiety.
lots. and lots. of anxiety.

every second on my own i feel like I'm suffocating and I hate it.
This comes and goes. I haven't had panic attacks in months, but they're back.
I say I just want sleep; that I'm not feeling well- hoping that'll grab someone's attention, even though I don't know why it would so then I'm still sitting all alone but then I'm more sad because no one catches it and so i wind up just sitting alone on the verge of tears just wondering if I should give up and go to sleep, but I know when I go to bed like this I have nightmares and i don't know which is worse, waking lonely reality of sleeping cruel fantasy.
and then ankle will send random jolts of pain if i touch it on something or step on it wrong and my arms ache HORRIBLY.
mostly because of my crutches but, my lower arms too.. if you can understand the old longing of a long-quit cutter.
I sprained my ankle yesterday and I graduate in less than a week now.
I have to finish 3 illustrations for a children's book in a week and a half.
I need a second to breathe but have no time to take it.

So i'm here again. on psychcentral.
because i have no one else to turn to.

[lancetrot]

Really sorry for you.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I'm sorry you are hurting. PC has a funny way of bringing you back. But pc has WONDERFUL resources here that can help you, you know that you've been here Anxiety brought me back too.

When you feel the attack coming on, my t told me to do a little exercize. I have had a constant anxiety attack for two weeks now, a constant shake, constantly sweaty then cold then sweaty again. But when it gets more severe (as it does numerous times a day) he told me to carry a paper bag with me. Something about the carbon dioxide acts as a natural relaxer when you breathe in and out of it. Also he says close your eyes, take a deep breath in and say "I am", hold the breath for a second and release while saying "relaxed" do it about 5 times and there is a small difference. I have to do this to fall asleep most nights, I'll do it 40 times before I actually fall asleep but it works in time. Hang in there, anxiety can be so hard, but you got through it before, you will now. Just keep reminding yourself; you were fine 5 minutes before the attack and will be fine again in another 5 minutes. Hang in there, it's hard but you can do it. Never forget to take a minute to breathe, even if it seems like you don't have that minute, find it and make time for it. Your mental health is much more important than anything else going on right now and needs that extra time.

[TheSilentEmpath]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I'm sorry you are hurting. PC has a funny way of bringing you back. But pc has WONDERFUL resources here that can help you, you know that you've been here Anxiety brought me back too.

When you feel the attack coming on, my t told me to do a little exercize. I have had a constant anxiety attack for two weeks now, a constant shake, constantly sweaty then cold then sweaty again. But when it gets more severe (as it does numerous times a day) he told me to carry a paper bag with me. Something about the carbon dioxide acts as a natural relaxer when you breathe in and out of it. Also he says close your eyes, take a deep breath in and say "I am", hold the breath for a second and release while saying "relaxed" do it about 5 times and there is a small difference. I have to do this to fall asleep most nights, I'll do it 40 times before I actually fall asleep but it works in time. Hang in there, anxiety can be so hard, but you got through it before, you will now. Just keep reminding yourself; you were fine 5 minutes before the attack and will be fine again in another 5 minutes. Hang in there, it's hard but you can do it. Never forget to take a minute to breathe, even if it seems like you don't have that minute, find it and make time for it. Your mental health is much more important than anything else going on right now and needs that extra time.

Thank you.. and I'll try that

[BatsAndButterflies]

I am so sorry for that. It sounds like you have a lot going on right now. The way you wrote this post seemed very poetic. Sometimes when I'm having a panic attack I will draw or write poetry. Maybe your should try it. It seems to dull whatever I'm panicking about when I can get it out in some creative way.

[TheSilentEmpath]

Originally Posted by BatsAndButterflies

I am so sorry for that. It sounds like you have a lot going on right now. The way you wrote this post seemed very poetic. Sometimes when I'm having a panic attack I will draw or write poetry. Maybe your should try it. It seems to dull whatever I'm panicking about when I can get it out in some creative way.

I do write poetry.. and draw, and paint and use all medium of artistic expression.. occasionally when I'm in one of my panic attacks. It can definitely help. thank you for your concern