[Aunt Donna]

I guess you can say I am having a rough time right now and my nerves on end. I would go into a full pledge panic attack right now if it wasn't for one of my blood pressure medications that keeps my heart from spending up unnecessarily thus keeping my blood pressure in check.

My boss has been in and out of the hospital for over a month. I have been running the business and taking care of everything. She came in the office Tuesday and when I went in to speak to her, she was lying down on the couch in her office. I didn't bother her and told her husband what I needed to tell her. He told me to do the best I could do. I hope I am making the right decisions.

I have to lose a 100 pounds so I am watching everything I eat and drink and then feel guilty for eating.

Anyway, after I got off work Tuesday, I went to a restaurant that serves steamed vegetables. I had been there about 10 minutes when the owner (who is a friend of mine) told his wife he was going to get the employees paychecks from the CPA. He had no more than left when we noticed patrol cars racing toward the direction he had just went in. His wife went outside to see what was going on and the first thing she saw was the deputies pulling out a white sheet. She fell apart and the rest of us pretty much did, also. She finally got ahold to her husband. He was okay and he had witnessed the accident. A motorcycle going between 90 and 110 mph had hit a truck turning into a driveway. The cyclist was killed instantly. The cyclist and the driver of the truck were friends and we all knew them. We were shocked. Still shook up over it.

I am, also, dealing with pain from arthritis and bone spurs in my feet. To top it off I had a bad encounter with ants. Anti-itch medication is not working.

Too much drama going on with my mother-in-law and brother-in-law. They are driving my husband crazy, therefore me, also. Always something going on with them.

I was I could some rest with no pain and no thoughts running through my head and people leaving me alone for a little while. When I get nervous, my ocd, phobias, and everything else kicks in. I am so tired of all this.

[Leed]

Bless your heart! You're having an awful time! I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything go away!

I really know how all those racing thoughts can drive you nuts -- and it keeps you awake all night, and drives you crazy during the day! It used to literally make me crazy! Finally, I just said to HECK with it, and decided I wasn't going to let it kill me anymore.

It was hard, but I just quit allowing everything to "get" to me. I REFUSED to get stressed to the hilt. Sure, there were times when things got chaotic, but they didn't STAY that way, like before. I'd breathe deeply alot, and just clear my mind for a few seconds, and think of something that really pleased me like the ocean or something. I didn't care if someone was hollering for me at the time or not -- I HAD to calm down!! I kept doing it thru out the day, as often as I needed to, and pretty soon it just became habit that I was calmer and calmer each day. Soon, not much got me upset at all. I was able to do my job without getting very worked up at all.

Sure, it takes awhile, but I didn't have a heart attack -- not until I retired!!! GO FIGURE. LOL God bless and I hope you feel MUCH better very soon. Hugs, Lee

[Aunt Donna]

I'm trying not to let things get to me and concentrate on doing what I need to do for my health. I am going to spend the day today with my sister and her grandsons.

Thanks for the advice, it helps a lot.

[muncie]

Originally Posted by Aunt Donna

When I get nervous, my ocd, phobias, and everything else kicks in. I am so tired of all this.

My gosh Donna you have two plate fulls...no wonder you're nervous. I worked for many years and am now retired, but work stress is one of the worst because you bring it home with you. Wish I had solutions for you but to let you know like you, my OCD, phobias and anxiety kick into high gear when stressed too. We're in the same boat on high seas...

[Aunt Donna]

I had two different co-workers come into my office this week complaining of the stress they are under at home dealing with family. I told them "Welcome to the club", I have been dealing with the same thing for years.

I don't about you, Muncie, I'm ready for a life boat. It helps that someone understands. I have to do something to relieve this stress.

[muncie]

Originally Posted by Aunt Donna

I don't about you, Muncie, I'm ready for a life boat. It helps that someone understands. I have to do something to relieve this stress.

Save room for me Donna

[Aunt Donna]

Originally Posted by muncie

Save room for me Donna

Will do.

[muncie]

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I really know how all those racing thoughts can drive you nuts -- and it keeps you awake all night, and drives you crazy during the day! It used to literally make me crazy! Finally, I just said to HECK with it, and decided I wasn't going to let it kill me anymore.
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I wish more of us would get your attitude. We got to get a little more fight in us and not cave in to all the negativity. After all we only live once and and the older we get the faster it goes. Thanks for this.