Really Suffering

I am really suffering today. I had no sleep last night and little if any the night before. Having problems calming down. My fear is building back up and my breathing is labored. My trigger lately seems to be my son who is not doing well, have been sick for most of the vacation, still at my in laws which is not helping. We are schedule to leave tomorrow.

I really need some physical and mental rest. I am tempted to go back on Lorazepam. I really need some support my friends. This seems the only place I can get it.

My Lorazepam is as-needed. I take it only when I cannot stand my anxious brain any longer. That might be worth a shot. Hard to be addicted if you only take one every 3 weeks.

That was the goal my doctor and I set; taking it as needed. I am hoping to stay another week or so before taking the lowest dosage possible when needed.

I am feeling a little bit better after managing to get some tea and breakfast in my stomach. After my panic attack, I usually get an euphoric feeling, I think I am surfing that wave now.

Thanks for the support!

((((Uchiha)))) support and hugs. You are not alone. I can relate. I am so sorry you are feeling horrible right now and that your son is not doing well.

If you are suffering, please call your T and pdoc. There is no reason you need to suffer.

Hugs to you,
Rose