[Estee1]

I am feeling really overwhelmed by everything. I am dreading stuff alot and today I cancelled an appointment because I just didn't want to be there. I had a whole heap of fears about going. I usually make myself go to everything. But lately if I dread something I just don't go. I have given up so much and still can't keep up with things.
It's so cold and I can't bring myself to go walking. I'm so skinny and I get so cold. But I bought some long sleeve undershirts today. Can't see that helping much though. I need a rice bag under my jumper and in my socks. Lol.
I have to go to some people's house for tea on Saturday night. I am worried to the max about what I am going to talk about. I am very nervous and worried about what they will feed me for tea. What if I really can't eat it. I don't want to go but I know that it is good to meet new people. I am scared about saying stupid things or just freezing up and not knowing what to say. Eeek. Help!!!!

I know... I know... I feel so strange in the company of others. Constantly worrying about what I'm going to say and when I say something... how will they understand it? I feel watched! Don't know how to sit... scary!
Yes, it's a good thing meeting new people... I know you're worrying a lot now... but if you try to go there on Saturday... and stay just for a while... then it might make you feel better about it the day after. You're a wonderful person with a special glow- they will see that without you having to talk a lot!
If you just don't feel like going... if it is way too much... I don't think you should torture yourself by going there. This is what I'm thinking anyway...

(((((((((((((( Estee1 )))))))))))))))))

((((estee))) hugs to warm you up.
I have to disagree with Poetry about not going. I think if you don't go to this then you won't go to the next event and soon enough you'll be afraid just to leave your house.
Go and get it over with. No matter what happens you'll be glad you tried. I don't think you're going to look foolish or freeze up. You'll be fine-once your there you'll be like "What was I afraid of?"
Your new best friend may be there waiting to meet you-
Put on a brave face and go and have fun and enjoy some tea!!! If you can't eat what they serve then just tell them that you have allergies or why you can't eat it and I'm sure they'll understand. No biggie.
Go!
More warm hugs!

[Estee1]

Thanks you guys! I went out with some friends tonight. I was nervous but I did it and I will make sure that I see them again. It has been 6 months since i last saw them. About Saturday..I will go. I hope. I will just have to force myself and if I lose the plot while I'm there, I'll just tell them that I am very nervous about meeting new people and hope that they will understand. I could always say that I'd rather go after tea. Is that ok or weird?

Hi Estee,
I haven't been here much lately and I missed your post.
How was it on Saturday night? Wasn't as bad as you thought is was gonna be, was it?
You did go? Right?
If not, no biggie-you'll get out to the next one.
((((((((Estee))))))))

[Estee1]

Hi. Yes I went, and it was scary, but I survived. You are very right.
I did feel sick and I wanted to leave, but I didn't. Sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it. I am so scared that I will say something dumb around new people. Or that they won't like me.
But I dread everything at the moment so I don't know what I like and what I don't like. Everything is scary and everything is confusing. I feel worried all the time about whether I am doing the right thing or not. It is so annoying.