[Kellarella]

I really need to explain something that has been happening to me lately, and I realllly hope someone can understand, cause it is sooo hard to explain!

I have GAD... recently have got a lot better with meds and relaxing etc... but lately I have had this really weird thing happening.. I will try explain it as best I can...

This happens to me a few times a day.. I will be fine, have a really positive attitude, everything is good and right.. then all of a sudden its like I do a 180 and feel really different.. Its kind of like a low mood, but not sadness or anything, kind of like a feeling of dread. It is not a panic attack, but I do feel tight in the stomach and on edge and it lasts for a while, then all of a sudden I kind of find myself back to feeling ok.

I do not become suicidal or anything, just a feeling of dread or something, and all my positive thoughts of feeling good etc completely turn around...

I am so worried about this, I am so scared I have bipolar.

This wasn't happening before when I was having anxiety really bad... it's only since I have been improving that I have felt like this... Its not major, like Im not laughing one minute, crying the next or anything, no one would notice it.. its just a significant change in feelings inside me...

I would really really like to know if anyone has any ideas on what this could be?? or have ever felt this feeling...

The only thing I can think of is that maybe it is quite normal, but because I am paying so much attention to it.. that could be why I am noticing it so much??
I went through a period where I was really good, I didnt think of anxiety for days on end.. now I am waking wondering how I am going to feel that day...

Thanks

Kel

[Dezdemona]

Hi Kellarella,

I think I know what you mean. That happens to me too sometimes -- I have Dysthymia wich is a mild and chronic form of depression. My moods are always fluctuating, almost to the point of Bipolar.

I'm sorry that I cannot say whether or not you are bipolar. Have you talked to a counselor or therapist about this? I hope this post helps.

((((KELLARELLA))))

[Kellarella]

Thanks for your reply :-)

I just finished seeing my psychiatrist as she thinks I can do it on my own now.. I am still on meds... I kind of dont want to go back.. dont know why, I just feel like I did such a good job at getting better that, I feel like If I go back, i will get worse, sounds weird I know...

I finished therapy a few months ago... hmmm I really dont know.. If I get worse i will definately go back..

Thanks heaps for your reply :-)

Kel

[Rhapsody]

Hello.... Yes, I understand this feeling and I have suffered from it for many many years - my doctors found out that I have both PMDD and Clinical Depression.

It is possible that you too might have one of these problems?
If I may ask? - is your moments of lows more strong during (or right) before your periods?

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Kellarella]

Thanks for you reply, I am not sure whether I am depressed or not.. if I am I am fighting it so hard.. I hate the feelings I have been having.

I haven't taken notice of my moods/periods, cause I haven't been having these feelings for long, but I will make sure to take notice!

Thanks again for the reply,
Take care
Kel