[scaredgirl1001]

I thought my panic attacks were under control (as much as they ever have been). My problems seem SO pathetic and trivial. I am ashamed of myself,why can't I cope with life? Everyone else does. I fall apart inwardly every time I hit a stumbling block and my son looks like he is going the same way.

I should never have been so selfish and had kids who may have to suffer like this. I can't talk about specifics, too painful and raw.

I dont think I can handle waiting for a reply, desperation for help seems so intense. Reaching out and feeling so alone.

[Travelinglady]

Hello! I am sorry you are struggling so. However, you are not alone in having panic attacks. Are you in treatment and have you taken your son to get evaluated?

Please don't feel guilty that he seems to have some of the same symptoms.

[Maven]

PAYNE1 is right. You are definitely not alone. I feel the same as you. Why can't I do what and go where normal people can? Finding the right treatment can give you back at least part of your life, though.

Your son is not your fault. There's help for him, too.

[sassymck]

Hi. You are surely not alone. I'm sorry you're hurting so badly. If it gets less raw someday, we're here to listen. You sound so desperate, and that is a painful place to be. Rest assured though you're in good company. Talk to us anytime. Take care of yourself.

[tinyrabbit]

You strike me as a caring person who pays attention to their child. I'm sorry things are hard right now.

[not quite right]

I understand all of your pain. I believe I passed dissociative personality disorder among a score of other issues to my son & am trying to help him even though I am highly unstable myself. You are among friends, never alone. This place has become an outlet for feedback by like minded, kind hearted people & I hope you find comfort here as I have.

[Piraeus]

Hi scaredgirl1001. Nice to meet you. Your are not alone in your suffering. Many people
here have panic attacks, including me. Your problems are not pathetic. You did a brave
thing reaching out to people you don't even know. There are some really great people here at PC. You are in my thoughts and prayers. God bless, and please take good care of yourself.

Sincerely,

Piraeus

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Just to echo what has already been said: you're not alone!

I've got severe anxiety issues too, as do maaaany other people (it's surprisingly common, sadly :|) so please try not to feel so alone, because, while we are unwell, we are many, and so we can stand together - hence, this awesome place!

You have kids, and they look to you for strength, support, and answers. Perhaps you can help teach them how to handle something you perhaps didn't have the help for yourself. They are not unlucky to have you, they are lucky to have you, because you can guide them where others are often alone.

*hugs*

Heart goes out to you. I feel or have felt the same way as you do about your anxiety(ies) so I do understand (if only partly, given no two situations are the same) how desperate and alone you probably feel. To give you an idea; I am often stuck at home, because I struggle with so much as going to Tescos but 10-15 minutes walk from where I live. I'm "disabled", and "unable to work". I messed up school and college because of how I am. Honestly, just hope you know you're not alone.

[ocdwifeofsociopath]

hi, um when my husband and I found out he had antisocial personality disorder he said the exact same thing, almost. that if he'd known that, he would never have had children. I've also stressed and worried to no end if my mental issues will be passed down. I think about how awesome my kids are and how it's crazy that they can do things so much like either one of us and yet they are so themselves even though they are really little and then I just feel grateful that if they do have either issue at least we'll be there to relate to them and give them the tools they need to live a normal happy life despite the fact. I wish I could have been been diagnosed earlier. And even though I would do anything to fix my brain and I pray daily my kids don't have any issues, I'm so glad for them. Now that they're here I'm only allowed to look forward and make the most of it.

[gaia67]

Oh honey I can definitely relate. ((hugs))

[Astridetal]

Sorry you're struggling with guilt and anxiety. Please know that you are not passing on a mental health condition onto your son. It's not 100% genetic after all. And even if it were, it's not like you can't live a happy life with mental illness. You can, but it's hard work.

[growlycat]

If you are worried for your kids it is probably a sign that you are a good, careful, self-aware mom. It's the ones that think they are brilliant parents that scare me (one "sanctimommy" comes to mind in my family.)

So many of us have phobias that feel shameful and debilitating but you aren't alone. Hope you can seek out help--it is a huge relief.

[TimeEntrance]

Hang in there, scaredgirl. I will keep you and your son in my thoughts.

Anxiety can be tough.