[cheerstar]

Im a 17 year old girl who has been struggling wth major OCD and anxiety since I was younger. I am probably one of the girliest, boy-crazed people you will ever meet. I love fashion and hair and makeup, etc. Recently ive had obsessive thoughts about hurting someone or going crazy, which finally subsided. The other day I was watching some documentary on transsexual people with gender dysphoria (or whatever its called) and being the person I am, I started to panic and get scared I had that. I have never once in my life wanted to be a boy and I love my body and being a girl, but once I saw that I got scared and thought maybe I have that. I cant stop thinking about it now, and it is really scary me. I am now completely depressed and confused all because of watching that one show, and I don’t know what to do about it. My mind will keep thinking like a guy and I start to completely panic, and when I think like a girl my mind says its wrong. Is this just the OCD and anxiety playing tricks on me? Is it possible for me to get gender dysphoria randomly out of no where? Will this go away? Please help☹

[AngelWolf3]

I'm so sorry this is going on for you! Welcome to PC, I am sorry I didn't see this post sooner. I do know that sometimes thoughts can completely overtake your mind and it is very easy to get lost in that. I don't have any tips or any answers, really (I wish I did, though) but I am hoping that someone else might be able to help? As far as the genter issues, there is a sex/gender issues forum here too where maybe some others might have some better answers; I have found that forum here very helpful too.

[sassymck]

I have bad OCD as well. You may want to post in the OCD forum. Feel free to message me anytime, and we can chat. I don't think you suddenly have gender dysphoria. Trust me, anxiety and OCD make the mind play tricks on you. I recite a mantra to myself: It's not reality--it's just my OCD. I kind of chant it with a peppy little melody to make it amusing and light. I convince myself of all sorts of things, or should I say my OCD does. Do you see a doctor or therapist for you OCD or take meds to control it?? I find those things help me. I find doing a lot of rational self-talk also helps. The big thing I have been told is to distract my mind from obsessing by getting it involved in some activity that will force it to focus on something else; don't reinforce the obsession by letting it obsess incessantly. I hope some of this is helpful to you. I know how draining and frustrating OCD can be. Sometimes I'd rather have my depression or my anxiety than have this damned OCD. It drives me mad. I can hear the desperation in your words--the angst you are feeling--and can really relate. I hope the obessions go away soon and you find some peace. Try some relaxation exercises; meditation or mindfulness; a warm bath or aromatherapy; a long walk or some music; guided imagery or progressive relaxation of your muscles--anything you find calming. All the best to you.

[Cocosurviving]

I hate this happened to you and hope you
resolve it.

[Ipod1]

For sure just the OCD in my opinion. It latches onto anything it can and feeds off of it. I haven't had this exact obsession but I've had some strange ones lol. They all go away eventually and then another theme will pop up. Just take the thoughts as thoughts. That's all they are and try not to pay them any attention, and they WILL subside. They only give you anxiety if you let them.. Hope you feel better