[jen29]

I just recently went back to work on May 22. I had been unemployed for the past 5 years and went back to where i was working which happens to be mcdonald's. I asked for my job back and they were gracious enough to let me hav it back.

Work has been going good till i hit the 3rd week. I am having a hard time getting myself to work. Usually I can talk myself into going and telling myself it will be ok. More recently this goes on throughout the entire time I am working. When I make it through a shift I say good job to myself and then the anxiety and worry comes for the next day.

Anyways this morning woke up well before work and called in sick. My anxiety is getting the best of me. I know I can work I know I can. It's getting there. I don't know what this is even all about and I meet with my T tomorrow. In my past have had the same thing with other jobs, and somehow got through that.

I take an ativan in the morning and at night, just not working anymore. When I get up in the morning the anxiety is already there. I go to bed anxious and usually can get some sleep because don't have to get up till mid-morning. I am scared all the time now because of this problem with my going to work now.

Not sure what am looking for, maybe anyone who has gone through this or is going through this.

Thanks for listening
hugs,
jen

[healingme4me]

I feel I can relate to what you mean, about getting there and the anxiety about the workplace.

Friday, I had a managers meeting and needed to go back to my former location for it. I had a sinking feeling, was anxious and kept saying to myself, I hope I am not late, etc. And I realized, since I've been at my new location, I don't carry that same stress. I am actually earlier than on time at my new location, and if I am running a couple minutes behind, rare, I don't have that sinking dread feeling in the bottom of my stomach.

It's nice to not dread going to work.

Is there a person there, that stresses you? Is it the work, itself?

Not showing up, can become troubling, as far as maintaining the job. I hope you are able to work through it.

[jen29]

I have no clue what has brought up all this anxiety, i like the job and the people there are really nice. I used to work there and had to leave because of mental problems affecting it, now that am back i thought was doing so good. It was a huge step to go back to work and now am failing at it. I can't ruin this cause it's the only place i feel comfortable at. But now can't even get there. I'm stuck and feel so bad about myself right now.

[Redsoft]

Maybe you feel anxious because of having to leave before. Are you anxious over thinking you might have to leave again? You can do it!

[jen29]

Does anyone have any ideas on how i could approach my boss about this so she knows what is going on?

I had to leave the job before cause was in the hospital a lot and was really depressed. I don't want to leave because she gave it back to me and she even asked if I would be there all the days I work....I said yes.

Things are going good at work and I don't want to screw it up. I am already in a panic about tomorrow having to go back to work. I am scared out of my mind. I don't know how to get myself to work tomorrow.