Frustrated with pdoc

This past week has been hard. Last Monday my husband tried to kill himself because of his chronic pain. And my anxiety/panic has been through the roof. I cant keep food down. I jump at every little noise, my temper is short and Im always angry. Im getting as bad as I was 3-4 years ago when I lost my temper and actually broke someones nose. I havent been to my pdoc since Nov of last year cause my insurance lapsed. I got it all straightned out and had an appt this morning. The doc wrote an order for a drug test at the local hospital before he could give me any med, even my Ssri. Well even if I had my drug test today, it would be another month before my ins will pay for another pdoc visit. So Im outta meds this time. My doc said unless I could pay $50 out of pocket, that he couldnt do the in office drug screen cause the ins wont pay for the in office kit. This is so messed up. My doc kept saying "youre unstable. Youre unstable.". But he wont give me any meds to stablize me again. Not even a non narcotic!!! I dont know what to do. My mind is going 100 mph. Ive had a headache for 6 days now from my nerves. I feel nausous to the point of not eating. I dont know how much longer I can go on before I completely lose my mind.

I'm so sorry you are struggling and that your pdoc is being difficult.

Do you have a therapist you are working with as well? Could they talk to the pdoc about getting you a small dose of meds called in...just a month's supply...until you can go back after the drug test?

Can you go to your GP instead?

Rhi, I dont have a T. Im going to look into it though. My pdoc is only for medicine apperently. I need therapy just as much as meds. Hopefully, I can find one quickly.
Muggle, my GP wont write out any psych meds. I think its because of the stricter prescription laws we have now. All I know is, that its going to be a very long month. Im not functioning very well. I cant go out of my house. And for the last 2 days, Ive not left my room.except to use the restroom. Everything is triggering my panic attacks. My head will not stop hurting and my neck muscels are sore from being tense. It very hard right now : (

It's a liability, for them, to just prescribe you something, when you've been out of the regular visits. Sorry for all you are going through.