[Evaluna]

Today has been really difficult on many levels. My 6yo has wanted to talk incessantly, we've been stuck in because of bad weather, I've been feeling particularly low and very isolated.

I've not actually felt like physically speaking to someone but I've sent a few texts out at different times today to see how people are and not one person has replied. And these are people who are always on their phones when I'm in their company so I know they would have seen them.

I've got my doctors appointment in the morning where I'm meant to be going for help and I've lost all confidence and I'm scared about going to open up with what I planned to say. I feel so nervous about it.

I feel very isolated tonight, very anxious and just generally very miserable. There's not really much to say about it but this place really helps.

Hello Evaluna: I'm sorry you're having such difficulty currently. We have not met, here on PC before, but I would like to offer myself as a pocket rider for your doctor's appointment. I wish you all the best...

[Gus1234U]

i know that feeling of isolation all too well~

there is a thread in the Emotions Forum on Self Soothing Skills, that might have something to help you, and your son~ i hope you find something that lifts you up....

http://forums.psychcentral.com/copin...g-skills~.html

[Evaluna]

Thank you for your kind responses 😊 I'm going to have a look at that now x

[Evaluna]

OK I did it. Ive just got back from the doctors and I was totally honest and said everything I wanted to say.

I was sweating and shaking and I told her I felt stupid saying it all out loud, but she was so lovely and really understanding. She wants to change me off the citalopram onto fluoxetine but is letting me get through the school half term week so I'm not feeling worse when I'm stuck at home.

I'm feeling a bit better now I've actually spoken to someone and I've said how I actually feel rather than just putting on the usual front of I'm ok! I'm hoping that things might start working out a bit better although I know it will take some time. But I've taken a small step forward I think.

[ockite]

Hey that's great! Steps are steps, no matter how small. I still need to take my first step actually

Sending positive vibes your way!

[Evaluna]

The good feeling didn't last that long but I've done what I set out to do

[gracebuttercup]

I think it takes strength to do what you did, Evanluna. you reached out. Thats great. I have a huge problem with isolation etc. It feels greusome to be living as alone as I do. I am impressed with what you have done. Great work !