i never posted in here before cos i thought i had just depression. but today i have been anxious all day. ther's a knot in my belly and it just will not go away. i'm tense, aggitated crying every five minutes. i just hate this feeling, i can't eat and i feel sick and nervous. i had to come home from work this morning, leaving hubby to run business on his own. i don't know how i drove home. i wasin the wrong lane, nearly went into the back of someone and shook from head to toe. i got in the house and paced the floor. how do you get rid of the knot - sense of doom.
my good friends in here helped me in chat, but as soon as i came out i relapsed agin. here i am severalhours later feeling the same. i know i shouldn't drink but i need something to numb this feeling. i think it may help me calm down. i don't have a drink problem but need to get rid of this and hope it wont come back.

jin

[lesbo]

Hi Jinnyann.

Sorry you are feeling so stressed and anxious. Have you tried relaxation exercises just to help take the edge off? There are some wonderful meditation scripts on the net and I am sure if you google them, you will find one that really is able to help a bit.

[katheryn]

sorry you are feeling like this at the moment
(((((((((((((jinnyann))))))))))))))
do you know what triggered how your feeling , the only thing i can suggest is try and find something that will help ease the anxiety and focus on that, i know how scary it can be when you are driving and you nearly go up the back of someone else,
hope you start to feel better soon

thanks guys, i just had the most amazing hug off my daughter, real love, real feeling and i feel so much better. she is my world along with my son....

power of the hug...

jinny xxxx

[therealme]

jinnyann , i hope you are feeling a bit better now, i suffer from panic attacks and Anxiety ., as well as depression.
i sorry you had to go through this , and im glad you got a big hug from your daughter. here's one from me ((((((((((jinnyann)))))))))
one last thing ........ you may not want to hear this , but, .......im afraid that , there is every likelyhood that your Anxiety will return.
sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but please remember we are all here for you
take care
dec xox

hi sweety

thankyou for your words, i do feel alittle better, knot has gone, been in good company, talked to my friends outside of here and realise how lucky i am that people care for me. they kept telling me they love me and giving me hugs lol ( you know i love my hugs) thankyou friends for all your support and all your help, you make me stronger and i'm here for you. i feel safe and warm tonight and reach out to those who feel lonely, pass on my vibes and hope they reach you. you're all so so special to me and i hope we'll always be friends

love x millions, jinny (kerry)xx

[Talulah]

Ker,
So sorry you deal with this crap! I have soooo much anxiety and it ebbs and flows ya know.

Yes, grounding techniques, touch, hugs, touching or tapping the floor etc../touching things help me. Overall, I have to pop a xanax or a valium tho. Try some deep breathing and slowing stuff down. Taking pressure off yourself can help if you can.

Watch that caffeine when you feel this way. If you don't have an alcohol problem, then a stiff shot will help ya ease up or a nice slow glass of wine......

Sometimes a good yell or scream (but that can also agrravate) And finally, EXCERCISE or stretch those muscles to get some oxygen flowing in all the "parts"....

[(JD)]

Anxiety and depression go together, unfortunately. Keep working on both, and you'll begin to feel better overall.

Do your best

((((((((talulah)))))

thankyou, i did take drink winelast night, but my daughter got rid of anxiety, she hugs really well, one thingi taught her from early age lol.

feel level today, not high, not low. took sleeping pill last night(not good on top of wine)but slept like a baby.

did a few excercises, cleaned house then lay on bed for a while, now chilling and composing a ppoem for creative corner. hope you're ok. talk soon, kerry xxxx

(((((((Jinnyann))))))))))))))
I have to ask this-did you have/take anything with caffiene in it? Coffee, Tea, Chocolate, Midol, Excederin, etc...?
If so, then that may be contributing to it-also, if you take sleeping pills over a long period of time and then cut back or stop, that can start to make you feel jittery and ill at ease, too.
If those two aren't the factors than there's something that's hiding inside your head that you need to bring out into the light. Do you fear being ill? Are world events concerning you? Is any family member sick?
Can you try to pinpoint where these feelings of panic are coming from?
It's only a start but it's something you could work with.
Hope this helps a little bit.

hi jax,

thanks for caring,

i don't sleep well unless i take a sleeping pill. don't like to do that every night. yesterday i was extremely tired, went to help hubby with business, too many people and had slight panic attack, came home and yes i did drink coffee, which probably didn't help. i must say that i don't very often suffer with anxiety, sometimes it gets bad like yesterday.

much better today, hop you are ok?

loadsa luv n cuddles, jinnyann xxxxx

I'm the same way with sleeping pills. I can get to sleep but then I get up to go to the bathroom and I can't get back to sleep unless I had taken a sleeping pill before I went to bed.
I'm glad you're feeling better. Cuddles to you too.

Hi Jinnyann,
Now I'm confused. I thought what you wrote in Jen's thread is supposed to go here but now I'm not sure. In anycase- I wanted to write back to you. Maybe this is the wrong thread but who cares-

You wrote: thankyou jax, for caringand taking thetime to write to me.

i've been very betrayed froma little girl by my own mother, and later my father. and apsychologist(man)if you could call him that. i don't trust anyone much, get very clingy and innsecure. feel like people are abandoningme left right and centre. my husband isn't very affectionate andi really need that. i seriously am beginning to wonder if my marriage will work at all. i've told him what i need, he just can't or won't give it to me, he finds it hard i know we've been together for 19 years. i've had enough now, i want to behappy and loved and cuddled and wanted. i'm goingto shut up now before islide again lol. take care

jinnyann(kerry)xxxx

I'm sorry you've been betrayed and abandoned. I feel the same way sometimes-a lot of times. It's hard to trust again once that foundation is shaken up and damaged so badly in your childhood and it really stinks because we had no control over it and how it would shape us but we're stuck with the consequences. Sometimes I think all we can do is to learn to rely on ourselves. Well, that's what I do-I don't know if would be any good for you but I find that needing people usually ends up hurting me.
I'm not married and I only know about husbands from what I've heard from other women but I am absolutely sure that you're not alone with what you're going through with your husband. As a matter of fact, from what I've heard, it seems to be the norm. For whatever the reason, men just seem to be like that. In this case, if you're thinking it-the grass may not be greener on the other side. Maybe you could try talking to him again? Or just hug and be affectionate with him and see how he responds?
I'm sorry you're not feeling cuddled, loved and wanted.
Have you thought about marriage counsling?
((((((((Jinnyann))))))))))) Things will be okay and you're not going to slide. You just got to work it out. You know? You can cut off your hair when there's a big stubborn knot in it or you can patiently work out the kinks. Only you can decide what you can live with.

jax, thankyou so much for your support. you are so kind and thoughtful. i love reading what you say. please stay close and remember i am here for you too anytime.

feel a bit hzy, hope this makes sense. had diazapam

speak soon, love kerry (jinny)xxxx

(((((((Kerry))))))))

[Talulah]

Hello sunshine........!

Yea, lol, me and a glass O wine and a diazepam or something. I totally self medicate so I chuckled when I read your posts......

Glad your daughter is a certified offical well-trained hugologist ........fabulous! Good job with her. Now, can you bottle some of the air around the hug, and send to me in the US of A? I shall quite enjoy a UK hug traveled far and wide by the one and only daughter of Kerry!

Yay..........hugs to you and yes, for now, I'm doing fairly okay!

love you talulah

special hug from uk every day first thing in morning to you.

keep welll and safe, kerry xxx

[Talulah]

I'm quite enjoying my uk hugs.....(think I'm developing a bit of an accent as well)

love ya back jin