A recent event effecting my anxiety severely...

So, I've been having "mini" anxiety attacks throughout the day. Last night, while in a very stressful and terrifying situation, I had two serious ones. Last night, my boyfriend's car broke down after school let out. My best friend picked him up and her boyfriend met us in town and we hung out for awhile. My friend's boyfriend (My cousin) was driving my boyfriend and I home when my boyfriend started having a Generalized Tonic-Clonic Seizure next to me in the back seat. I had never seen someone have a seizure before, and I was terrified. He started groaning, his eyes rolled back in his head, he was foaming at the mouth, his entire body stiffened and started to convulse, and he was smacking his lips together and pulling at his clothes/rubbing his hands together. I didn't know how to react and just simply called 911 and told my cousin to pull off of the road. When the first responder arrived, he wouldn't allow her to touch him (he was just starting to regain his senses) and he looked up at me trembling and barely able to speak and told me he was scared and that he didn't want to die. He had no idea how old he was, where he was, or what day of the week it was. He refused to get in the ambulance unless I came with him. It was the scariest thing I've ever dealt with... I can't get the image out of my head. It keeps relooping in my head over and over and over again. I had an anxiety attack during his seizure, and again at the hospital. I'm scared for him. I thought he was going to die and I hope his medication prevents more of these in the future.. He was diagnosed with epilepsy when he was young and had his last Tonic-Clonic Seizure 2 years ago. I'm grateful that his car broke down when it did, because if it hadn't, he would have been driving home when he started seizing over. I just don't know how to deal with this.. I know that if I can't handle this, I won't be able to handle worse situations. And I don't want to relive that moment every second that I close my eyes.. It just makes me worry about him more, bringing on another mini attack...

Wow, that's a really intense situation! I'm sorry you had to go through that. I saw someone have a seizure once- It wasn't as bad as you describe, they were there one minute and all of a sudden they were hunched over convulsing and stuff... it's kind of hard to get it out of your head for a while I suppose, I got over it really fast. Do you see a therapist? Maybe try and talk to them about it if you do. Try and draw a picture of what happened, or write about it, and then crumple it and rip it into little pieces. This was a technique I came up with to kind of "Destroy" the bad things in life.
Hope this helped... just hang in there, it'll get better soon. Take care!

Relax sure he couldve been dying or behind the wheel of a car, but thats not what happened. You did the right thing by calling 911, and thankfully it was just a harmless seizure. Case closed!Ruminating about what couldve happened or how you will react to similar situations in the future does NOTHING to change either and is probably 99% of whats causing your anxiety and panic attacks. I understand that sometimes it can really be difficult to stop thinking about stuff like this, the best advice i can offer you is to get out and go do something you really enjoy and can put your mind too. Maybe go to the mall with your friends

I hope you get feeling better!

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