Terrible Pain.. OCD Related problems..

Hey guys.
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Im 15 years old, and I've had pretty bad OCD and depression since I was 13. This was mainly due to a major lose in my life (the lose of my school and my friends and teachers that I loved so much) was overwealming becuase I felt that I had finnaly found a true place to learn and not worry about being picked on or abused. After I lost that, I went nearly 8 months without eating a single thing, I reclused myself in my room and was very weak and tired all the time, not to mention frail from malnurishment.
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Since then I've rebounded from not eating (I now eat quite often, maybe even too much so, hehe) But the thing is, my OCD is still here. My depression and pain still remains. Im currently taking Zoloft which I don't think is doing much other than stopping me from going into a panic attack -- mind you, it doesn't solve my OCD.
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And some of these fears are both impossible, and very painfull for me, scarey even. Like sometimes I will try to poke my eye out, sometimes I will think about trying to harm myself or others, or even worse -- and im just not that kind of person. I love life but it's just been so hard to deal with these intrusive horrible thoughts that I don't know where to turn anymore. If you guys could help me I would greatly appreciate it. God Bless.

George H.

Hi George, I wish I could help you, I really do. All I can offer is a shared understanding of the mental anguish caused by OCD. I've struggled with it for over three decades and it has worsened as the years passed. I sincerely hope that your future will be different. I hope that you'll be able to find a way to overcome your OCD problems or to deal with them effectively so that they won't impede your ability to live a functional and productive life. Wishing for you, some peace of mind. Keep well and safe.