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Old Apr 25, 2015, 01:13 PM
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Alone as usual thinking it would be nice to have somebody to talk to. Couples walk by and I feel heavy like lead. Waiting for food which has always been convenient distraction but it certainly has failed to fill the gaping hole inside. There's laughter in the background and I want go deaf - I hate myself, I hate being alone again. Last night I dreamt I smelled your hair - I don't know who you are but I love you. I look at the seat next to me hoping you'll appear but you never do - your skin is made of air. The coffee smells good it briefly sedates the self abuse - the crying child. The waitress said something to me -I notice her smile and make believe. Right now I need a friend - not tomorrow. The loneliness makes electric worms crawl up my skin - what ever happened to the way it's suppose to be. What's it like to not hear yourself breathe - to catch the respect of another. The eggs arrive but I feel nauseous - dancing alone has turned my stomach to mush. The waitress asks if I'd like more coffee - I want to taste her neck as the desperado returns. In the corner a woman sits alone - should I ask her to dance? Paralyzed I'm convinced I will never close the distance.

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Old Apr 25, 2015, 01:31 PM
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this sounds like a movie writer wrote it, you should think about writing something for a show or play, i loved it!!! have a great day-you made mine
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Old Apr 25, 2015, 02:33 PM
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Thanks needs edits though - geez
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Old Apr 25, 2015, 08:10 PM
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Thanks needs edits though - geez
Fixed that for you.
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Old Apr 28, 2015, 02:42 PM
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I was moved by your post, as well. Right now I am separated from my husband so I know what it's like to feel all alone, even though you are surrounded by people. It hurts. Other people make their lives seem flawless and easy. Mine is messy and chaotic. I don't have good advice for you. I just wanted to co-miserate with you a bit and tell you that you are not the only one going through this. Here's to hoping things start looking up for you and me.
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