I need help!

Hi everyone, I am 23 years old and I've been dealing with anxiety ever since I was 13 (on and off). I always Obsess Over many things like when I was younger I convinced my self I was possesed, had cancer, had a brain tumor and even thought I was going to have a heart attack. When I was about 15 I started to have intrusive thoughts about things that where totally against my values. I struggled so much but I never told anyone. Because of those thoughts I thought I was a bad person. I thought I was going to go insane because of the thoughts I remember telling myself that I was going to start hearing voices and even start to see things. Anyway, I had that fear for about 3 months And then at one point I think I did actually started to hear my name being called, but I don't know if it was because I was obsessesing over it or not. Anyway, I spent many years like that with hearing or thinking I was hearing my name at random times. At 20 years of age I forgot all about the voices and I when on to college and didn't really have any of the symptoms. Now at 23 I have the same symptoms. Except, now they are more pronounced. It all started after a very stressful situation where I thought I was going to have a heart attack and I rushed to the ER where they told me that it was just my anxiety. Before that iincident I was having a lot of stress in my life after graduating from college and not being Able to find a job. Anyway, I spent About a month thinking i was physically sick, but after many physical tests I came to conclusion that there was nothing wrong with me. After that, I started focusing on my mental health I started freaking out and obsessing on the fact that I was crazy and that I was going to start hearing voices and seeing things . My intrusive thoughts came back and I started to think I was going insane. I then started to hear ( or think Im hearing) voices. It's been 3 months and I can't get over the fact that I'm developing schitzoprenia or something similar to that I don't know what to make of this. I do see a therapist and I've told him about the tthoughts in my head and the voices that I think I hear and he just said Its my anxiety. I don't have any schitzoprenia in my family or anything to do with mental illnes la but I can't help to think that I'm slowly becoming crazy. Please help it just want to go back to the person I was.

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through with this.
Keep in mind that psychosis and/or hearing voices is not only associated with schizophrenia. Hearing voices has been observed in depression and bipolar disorder, too.
I think that you need further evaluation and to seek further treatment. I hope that you find out what is wrong with you and you nip it in the butt! Don't be so quick to diagnose yourself.

Edit: you seem pretty aware of yourself, so I doubt that you are going crazy. Anxiety can definitely make you feel as if you're going insane.

Dear friend

As you are aware that everything that you experience is due to thought process. your thinking is spiking and it's revolving in search for answers to what you are feeling. did you realize that you had presumption about having schizophrenia before consulting a T. a T would have diagnosed it and would have told you if you had schizophrenia. but he told you it was anxiety. did your mind allow you to accept that answer? it's still searching to substantiate to what you think. because your mind has firmly started believing if you suffer with those symptoms then it has to be schizophrenia.

stop struggling with yourself. you are just making matters worse for yourself. learn to let go and relax. practice deep breathing and continue your therapy.

I am sorry that you are experiencing this. It sounds enormously distressful. I think I would seek the help of a medical doctor or psychiatrist.

Thank you for replying, I have mention the possibility of being bi polar to my therapist, but he thinks I'm not. I just get really frustrated. I really don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me like it's done in the past.

Hello, thank you for the reply. Yes my Therapist told me it was anxiety, but then I think about the things I hear (my name from a distance) and I can't help but to think that I am becoming schitzoprenic or just Plain crazy. My biggest fear is that me hearing my name might get louder or even start to hear full on words telling me to do bad things. I know it sounds exaggerate, but I truly have this fear. Like what if I start hearing voices very clearly or what if I become delusion. It's an ongoing fear that I have. I want to get over it but I can't. Thank you again.

Thank you , I'm in the process of doing that.