[Nike007]

Hello. Just to let you know, there will be a lot of possibly triggering words in here so if you are sensitive to triggers, please stop reading.

Okay, so for the longest time (at least 2 years), I have a major fear of developing PTSD. I have never experienced something that would be considered traumatic according to the DSM-V, but why I am afraid of developing does. I have had dreams, very traumatizing ones, ones that probably are considered nightmares to people.

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So the first dream (most are maladaptive dreams) I mainly had was of my family peacefully at a family reunion in LA and then suddenly the building is bombed and everyone but me dies. I don't need anyone on here to interrupt it (unless you really want to). I have find my own way without money, family, and the horrors of the event on my mind.

It's all very traumatizing in my head. I have never jolted from sleep because of it nor have woken up anxious or wide awake, but some nights I don't want to sleep because it.

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A few more of the dreams included people I care for being kidnapped, gun shootings, near-death instances, being raped, tortured, stabbed, shot at, etc.. It is all really terrible and I get scared going places sometimes because of these events.

At the end of those dreams (as in the end of the traumatizing part of it), I have all the symptoms of PTSD. I know you may say "these are only dreams and they aren't real", which I know, but this is just reimbursing a fear I have. I live in fear that I may run into a traumatic even that will trigger PTSD. This is probably because of the GAD I have that this causing this fear, or a specific phobia, but I haven't truly had a normal dream for years now. I always get these fear dreams that I don't want.

The reason why I posted this today was because of what my mind was think of today.

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I was cutting my grass because it needed to be done, but the entire time I was thinking of a traumatic event I made up. So as I would be cutting the grass a tic would land on me that is carrying Lyme disease and I would get it. I was sent to the hospital because I got Lyme disease. Then I was there for over 2 weeks. I was there longer, but not officially. After that time frame, I didn't get better so the doctors' said I would be better off dead so they faked my death. I was brought to the morgue room they have at the bottom of the hospital. I was still alive, just very weak. But one of the doctors was an illegal doctor and donated organs of people who were alive. So as I was weak, he would cut open me with no pain medicine, and take organs he needed. I would die several times a day, but he would always wake me up. This lasted three months until a new doctor was in the morgue and I banged on my doors that they store the dead bodies. The doctor opened it and immediately called the police. It was so scary. After the event, I had severe PTSD and I wouldn't be able to enter hospitals without getting severe panic attacks. It was so traumatic. This was all a dream, but it felt so real and.

So I was wondering what I should do? This isn't severe, but I get them occasionally, enough that I have several different traumatic dreams that I all end up with PTSD. I am so anxious about it I don't want to do a lot of things because it may make me get PTSD. Soon I will be able to get my driver's license(.)

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, but I don't want to get PTSD and kill myself of someone else because of a car accident.

I am excited to get it, but also really anxious to get it.

Also, what to you think about this? I have never shared this with anyone before so I don't know what people will think. That's very nerve-wracking.

Thanks for the response .

[jaymoq]

Have you talked to a professional about this? Post-Traumatic Stress can be caused by many different kinds of scenarios. What is traumatic for one person can be different from the next. If these dreams are really traumatizing to you and causing lasting effects, it might not fit the description or diagnosis requirements by DSM but it is still impacting your life and should be evaluated.

The part you mention about getting your driver's license and working the potential for PTSD to cause an accident is very troubling for me. I see you are currently on medication, which makes me think that you are likely speaking with a professional? I highly encourage you to bring this up with them.

I experience some truly horrific dreams as well. I have been for over 5 years. I actually started a dream journal and I found it did help me make sense of and address my dreams. When I wake up from a really bad dream, I will immediately log it in my dream journal. There is an entire site devoted to dreams, lucid dreaming, and dream journals at www.dreamviews.com/.

I have found that is very helpful.