[KaylaDee33]

What I'm struggling with lately is fear of my own sickness (BiPolar, OCD) and how it will never go away. Thinking about the foreverness of it makes me very anxious. I also fear complete loss of mental control and that some medicine I take or some outside force will lead me into complete psychosis. I fixate on these thoughts and drive myself into panic attacks.
I know I need to learn to accept my illness and the fear will lessen but it is very hard and I am very stubborn.
I also fear that fearing going crazy is going to actually drive me crazy.

Is it possible to find a support group where you are. This is just the short of thing to share.

Consider that your psychiatrist is prescribing you that medication out of their best intent and desire to benefit you as best they can. I don't believe then there is a reason to fear your medications. Trust that while they may not solve your symptoms thy will certainly help.

Have you told them you have this fear?

I think your anxiety is based in the control you need (OCD). Your diagnosis no doubt makes you feel loss of that control. I think there are ways to cope with this anxiety by developing alternate routines - one you can control.

[Fuzzybear]

[detfan4life]

Sending you hugs. It can really hurt to have fears like this.

You know this, but when I try to pretend like the fear's not there, it only becomes stronger. So much of your post resonates with me. I am also diagnosed with bipolar and OCD and am afraid that fearing going crazy will make me crazy. In one sense, it's true that fearing an episode can make one more likely. Accepting that fear is really hard. To make it harder, trying to address our control thoughts rationally can feel instinctual, but usually will only frustrate us.

I haven't found a perfect solution, but I'm finding that more time spent in self-care helps to quiet the fear as well as my symptoms. I've gone to anxieties.com for some techniques to address my OCD and need for control. Sharing through support groups is also integral to my treatment. Remember that you'll become stronger with every time you try to let go of control, whether the attempt is successful or not.

[avlady]

i have psychosis to sometimes and my meds help. ive had episodes where i've had to be hospitalized too. i thank people who have helped me get through the episodes, after i've cooled down enough.good luck