[kaulitzfenty]

I always make up relationships like 'imaginary friends' and I have done this for YEARS it seems like. I'm 20 now and have done this since I was probably 14. I have so many different anxiety issues so because of that I have never dated, never go out, never really leave my house. I can't even meet people online because I'm too afraid to reply to people a lot of the time.

I will find pictures online of different celebrities or something and then write a story about how we met, I will sit around and pretend they're with me either in real life or I will write it like a story. I will cuddle a pillow at night and pretend it's them. I have many different emails so I will send an email to myself and reply as if I'm the man and like we're having a conversation. I get really invested in the story of it all.

I guess it's because I'm just so lonely and really want love. But this just makes me feel SOOOO pathetic after a while.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

This is a little beyond daydreaming I think. But im no professional. If this starts effecting, or already effecting your personal life and keeping you from interacting with real people then I would consider seeking professional help.

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[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by kaulitzfenty

I always make up relationships like 'imaginary friends' and I have done this for YEARS it seems like. I'm 20 now and have done this since I was probably 14. I have so many different anxiety issues so because of that I have never dated, never go out, never really leave my house. I can't even meet people online because I'm too afraid to reply to people a lot of the time.

I will find pictures online of different celebrities or something and then write a story about how we met, I will sit around and pretend they're with me either in real life or I will write it like a story. I will cuddle a pillow at night and pretend it's them. I have many different emails so I will send an email to myself and reply as if I'm the man and like we're having a conversation. I get really invested in the story of it all.

I guess it's because I'm just so lonely and really want love. But this just makes me feel SOOOO pathetic after a while.

I think it may be pretty normal for your age and expectations of your peers. I think you probably suffer from some sort of Social Anxiety. I am not a Dr. thou....I think you would benefit greatly on seeing a therapist...and then maybe they will put you on medication to help you with your obsessions.

[Nimitri]

I used to do that but not like that. That I would make fake people who were like me and I would live their fantasies while I was sleeping. They were always sad and somebody was hurting him but he managed to overcome it. Even know, I imagine how the world would be a better place with "this and that change" and I would spend hours, off and on, imagining this good changes after I see something that upsets me. I'm so much better now, have friends and a life with several hobbies and expectations, but for years I stopped coming out of my house, I gained weight, lost myself in books and internet. I closed myself completely and even know, I feel weird and anxious when somebody try to befriend me.

Like that?

You see, I had OCD, Anxiety and Deep Depression. I wanted to have a girlfriend, friends, to be "the heart of the party" and was punishing myself or negating myself for this fantasies. I needed two things: to derail my life to the point that I had a nervous breakdown of quite epic proportions in my college and 2) A visit with a therapist along with medicines and a lot of work.

Are you sick? I think you had a lot of unfulfilled needs and you found a way to heal yourself.

Is that bad? Well, can you distinguish reality from fiction? For me, it's very, very hard to separate emotionally both worlds and it hurt me.

Maybe you can difference it, but it can become an addiction. And that can create a circle where it damage your situation that force you to follow this desire more and more in larger quantities that damage more your situation and that creates a spiral. That happened to me.

Even if you can separate them, I would recommend you to see a therapist. There is something inside you that needs to come out, to be known and professional help can be a world of difference.

What you are doing is not wrong, but it can be a symptom that there is a pain in yourself that needs to heal. Maybe is social Anxiety. Maybe is a Trauma. Maybe is the situation around you.

Let a professional see you. Trust me, it would make things better. Maybe not immediately and I would not lie, it can hurt in the beginning but slowly it can give you so much more that you can imagine it.

P.D: Sorry If I came a little preachy, I got nervous when responding in the net because I feel that everything is going to be there forever. How are you feeling today?

[lilypup]

I agree that this doesn't seem wrong or anything, but I think you'd be better off with real people. I agree to see a t for help. They will understand.