[ADeepSandbox]

I just kinda need to vent. I'm going to a local clinic to start the process of getting in to see a psychiatrist for my depression and anxiety and my stomach is in knots. I always got this horrible can't-breathe, feeling lightheaded, break-out-in-a-sweat dread every time I went to see my old psychiatrist, who was mean and awful. I know (I hope, anyway) that not all of them are horrible and maybe the new one is going to help this time.

But I'm just so scared. I hate doctors! They're terrifying on a gut instinct level that not all the positive self talk in the world makes any more bearable. I saw my psychiatrist for two years and felt this panicky and trapped at every appointment. Just throw a prescription at me and clear a path to the door!

It's been over a year and I'd forgotten how panicky it makes me. I'm going to take a family member this time so I can have support. Maybe that will help a little.

I don't know why this is so consistently terrifying for me... most people get over it but two years of appointments didn't get me over it. I feel like I'm walking to my death every time I go. Felt the same way about therapy appointments.

[gayleggg]

Hopefully, this time you will get a caring doctor that won't make you feel so anxious. Each one is different. My pdoc that I've seen for years just quit taking my insurance and won't continue to see me. For me it means starting the whole process over, too. And I'm quite nervous myself. I'm afraid I'll have to go over my whole life history again. And I might not like the one I get. The list is short. Not a lot to choose from. So I understand, somewhat, how you are feeling.

I hope you get one you like and feel comfortable with.

[Skeezyks]

Good luck with your new effort!

[ADeepSandbox]

Thank you! I had a planning session with my family member tonight to help prepare and talk about my fears. It's helped and I feel a little less panicked.

[handheart]

Stop having this fear as every doctor its diferent .Maybe this doctorwas not so qualified and thats way its feel that way ,now you will meet a good doctor i am sure of that

[ADeepSandbox]

Oh he was qualified all right, he was just incredibly horrible! It wasn't just me either, there were reviews from other patients that he also treated poorly. One described it as a nightmare and another said they cried after sessions with him. But it helped me when I saw the reviews because now I know it wasn't just me being "too sensitive" like he tried to convince me when I told him my concerns!

Thank you, I went to the clinic and it was really hard and I hated every minute of it, but I got an intake appointment and hopefully I can get on some meds that will help. It would be nice to have a kind doctor but I am prepared to fight for myself this time if I get another jerk.