I planned on playing video games but it's hard for me. It's even hard for me to write here.
I just sit, either brooding about feeling-related thoughts, or wondering when this state will wear off...
I feel my readings on some psychological topics, mostly regarding my personal concerns, has been to waste as I also want to use it to help people, but feeling so bad with myself I feel my advice are useless.

I'm not good at expressing feelings, so when I do they feel more intensive inside.

I try to slowly breathe to ease myself, but I'm so stressed I can't make full breaths. It's like a clog of tension inside my heart, which clogs my flow.

Does anyone have answers for me?

I've been feeling like this for over 6 hours and didn't want to go to sleep because I'm so restless.
I'll go to sleep now, but I feel very worn out.
I'm not a religious person, but when feeling like this, I really feel like praying "may god have mercy on my soul".

Have you thought of journalling your thoughts?

I find journalling my thoughts to be very therapeutic. What is the trigger? What am I experiencing? What are my feelings? What are the consequences of my emotions/actions?

For example I do a lot of catastrophic thinking and this sort of exercise really helps me when I'm wound up.

No, it doesn't help...
When I feel this way, I can't work in an organized and technical manner.

[KarenSue]

I agree with justafriend306. There is no requirement to be organized or technical when writing. Just grab a piece of paper and put a pen to it. You may be surprised at what will come of it.

There is something about writing that actually helps me get through tough times/thoughts. Burn it when you are done if you like, the therapy is in the action of writing, no need to re-read.... Just my experience, but also recognized as nearly as beneficial as speaking to a therapist in some studies I've read.

I hope you feel better soon.

Yeah, but venting is not enough. Those are calls for answers, too.

[MickeyCheeky]

I don't have answers, but a big hug for you.. hope you'll feel better soon

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I don't have answers, but a big hug for you.. hope you'll feel better soon

Thank you Mickey
I'm working on it, I think I know what is causing all this. But I'm working on it.

[mc2ed]

I have a question....did coming here and writing make a difference for you?....I hope it did...I wrote a post....when I get over whelmed....I just sit at the computer...and let what ever is in my mind type out on the page...no expectations for rhythm or reason...sometimes no thought towards typing skills either...it could come out at jibberish....I have a brain injury....that effected my speech....my brain would not fire...still happens under too much stress....my doctor told me that if I could say anything...even one word....it didn't matter what...it would process my brain forward into speech......he also gave the instruction...though he said he didn't know why it worked....to curse the vulgar cursing I could think of...he said it opens some pathway in the brain.....I have a particular go to sentence....it works....not that I would want to shout that out in front of anyone...but when alone...it is a tool....

I understand stress and how it can....kind of disable your life....there is another thing...that sometimes is all I can do...is remember that....Things Change....I know if I can keep on breathing...at some point...what I am feeling will change...if I just be with what ever is happening in my mind or body....at some point it will change into something else....I have a chair too...it doesn't really rock...it has a spring like effect...it drops down and comes up a bit and forward....I call it my flushing chair...and sit in it and 'rock'....rocking moves and flushes your lymph system of toxins....and sometimes that helps too....

Okay...I am done flailing my fingers at you....I wished as others have for a way to be helpful...and only have this screen to apply it too.....I hope you are feeling better....and can find some rest...for mind and body....
Blessings to you....
MC....

[profound_betrayal]

Hi Vibrating Obsidian, I agree with mc2ed.

Just write whatever comes to you, whatever you can! Violently scribble, zig-zag if you need to .. 'scratch,' write again. Im feel a little listless right now - just vented myself. It's an unnerving situation & feeling to be in, I know.

Hope you feel better, wouldn't wish this for anyone

[Fuzzybear]

[mc2ed]

Coming back to say....I hope you are feeling better......

I find venting comes quite easily on paper and somewhere out of that something more organized will come. As another member posted above, you had the where-with-all to write the post(s). What if you just let those thoughts drift as you write?

There are other tools I have in the anxiety strategy box. I admit for me organised work does help; but, that isn't always the case. There are times I get so worked up I can barely sit down. I resort to using my senses to calm me down enough to do the work. You know, the old "What do I see/hear/touch/smell?" routine.

This next method takes a bit of explaining. I was actually shown it as a leadership tool but I have great success with it for calming me down.

Wether it is before I enter what I will know is going to be an anxious situation or am in the middle of one and need some help....

Take three small objects like pennies; I use coffee beans, and place them in your right hand pocket. As a negative thought enters your mind transfer a bean to the left hand pocket and so on. Now, try to find a positive thought and return the bean to the right hand side. This will go back and forth for a while but the goal is to eventually end up with all the beans in the pocket on the rght and hence be sufficiently calmed down.

[GGChar]

Vibrating Obsian (I love your name), I hope you are finding some relief form your anxiety. Did any of the suggestions work? I have found that soothing music and guided meditation can work for me, even just a bit. That and posting here. Don't be hard on yourself if meditation doesn't work the first time. Be patient with yourself. Keep trying to relax.

Justafreind, that is an awesome idea about the coffee beans. I am struggling with anxiety today. I will try that. Coffee beans will be my choice too.